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The past few weeks have gone by as I find myself stepping off the plane in Orlando, Florida. I smile a little seeing my kids all looking around before Karen turns to look up at me.
“ Daddy where is Snow White?” My daughter asks in her cute way
“ This is the airport honey you will see her tomorrow as it’s 8 p.m. in the evening.” Jasmine says speaking up as Karen shows sadness
“ Ok mommy Jazzy.” Karen says with a pouty face
We all make our way gathering our luggage to find two shuttle vans waiting for us. I guess my godfather Mike was expecting us to rent cars as he gave me a confused expression. I chuckled shaking my head no as he and the parents got in the second van. I was upset as well. Over the past week all the mothers were paying more attention to Travis for some fucking reason. I stepped up to Travis, Kaye, And Michelle telling them they were in the second van with the parents. They all three looked at me before going to join the parents. Diamond noticed before stepping over to me.
“ Baby what is going on?” She asks whispering in my ear
“ I just don’t want them around me right now. Sorry if I am being a pain.” I say a bit hurt whispering to her
“ Your not a pain baby I was just concerned that’s all.” She tells me placing a kiss on my chest
We get in the shuttle van and seated when Adam starts looking around as my ladies and I are in the very back seat.
“ Where’s Michelle as she was just about to get in?” Adam asks as I speak up
“ In the second shuttle van bro.” I say as he looks behind us with a sad expression
“ Oh.” Is all he says as he turns around
I know it’s cruel and all, but right now I don’t want anyone that supports Travis around me. I have tried to forgive him, but that voice in my head says no. I guess my godmothers haven’t noticed yet of my distancing away from them, but my mother and Faye have as they each have tried to talk to me as I just walk away leaving them with tears. Once our luggage was placed in the van. The drivers started for our hotel. I made it where my loves and the kids were on a completely different floor then the family. I wanted to be far away from the mothers, Travis, Kaye, and Michelle. I couldn’t explain why, but I just had to make it this way. Once we reached the hotel and checked in. We took two elevators up to our rooms after checking in. Once my brothers and sisters stepped off they looked at us confused as the elevator doors closed taking my four loves and kids up to the next floor. Once we reached the floor we stepped off to only make our way down a few doors to be shown into our room alright. I shocked those that I loved with a penthouse suite. The kids jumped up and down excited as they went in looking every where.
“ Heath what the hell baby? This is huge for a hotel room.” Diamond asks as the bell boy grinned before he spoke
“ This is a penthouse suite ma’am.” He says as all four of my ladies went wide eyed
“ NO WAY!” They all said in unison as they tackled me followed by the kids
The bell boy chuckled seeing the scene in front of him. After a few minutes I was helped up to tip the man that placed our luggage in the rooms. After he left and we got the kids calmed down my loves and I started to relax to be ready for a full day tomorrow.
The next morning being a Saturday started out with breakfast with the family. As I ate I looked to see all the mothers looking at me with great concern. I guess it finally kicked in that I was ignoring them. My own mother gave me a deep expression of worry as she looked at the other mothers who gave her the same looks.
“ Heath honey is it ok if us grandmothers take the kids for the day?” My mother asks as I look around the table to see everyone looking at me
I scoot my chair back and stand as they all look at me. I give each of my loves a hug telling Jazzy, Diamond, and Tiffany that it was up to them on this vacation about the kids. I told everyone I would see them at Disneyland. I left making my way out catching a cab to go on ahead. I make it to the park to see cars starting to pull in as I sit on a bench to wait for my family or should I say Travis’s family. I can’t shake this feeling that he is out to take everything I have and everyone I love. I shake the thoughts out of my head as I watch families and little kids start to make their way into the park that houses Disney world. As a kid I never got to come here, but now that I am here I don’t feel all that excited now. I guess the hurt I have gone through the past years has numbed my excitement. It’s about 30 minutes later that I hear ‘ Daddy daddy’ as I look up to see Karen and my boys running to me. I stay where I am as they get to me. I give each of them a hug as my four fiances get to me with worried expression. I stand as each one gives me a hug and kiss over my heart. Once all my family are near I start for the ticket booth and give them my name. The ticket person looks before giving me a smile. She hands me vouchers that show my name on them. I give her the money before handing tickets to my ladies, brothers except Travis, my sisters except Kaye and Michelle. I then hand the rest to Karen and tell her to take them to grandpa Mike to hand out. I raise up after she nods making her way to him. I see the hurt on the mothers as each accept what they are handed. I turn taking Hannah and Tiffany’s hands as they take each of their sisters hands, Jasmine and Diamond’s. We walk in as the kids go with the parents, Kaye, Michelle, Adam, and Travis. Chris and Selena go with Jack, Sierra, and Mandy in one direction. My loves and I go to look around by ourselves to see what this place has to offer.
As the morning goes by and I notice I forgot my cell phone. Jasmine sends a text to ask where to meet for lunch. After everyone sends a text back we make our way to a food area. Once we get together I see Lil Greg being held by Travis. I cringe at my son being held on Travis’s left hip, but I don’t make a scene as to not ruin my kids day. The mothers notice but don’t say anything as they start to order for the kids and themselves. I don’t eat anything as I only get a ice tea in which gets my mother’s attention.
“ Heath you need to eat honey.” She tells me as I just shrug my shoulders before I answer
“ I haven’t really been hungry as of late. Guess something put a bad taste in my mouth.” I say looking from her to Travis
She shakes her head as if trying to hold back tears. I go find a seat as I wait for my ladies to order what they want. As I sit there I think of my emotions. I am so freaking numb towards the mothers, my two sisters Kaye and Michelle, and Travis. I look over and feel disgusted as Momma Ellie talks to Travis smiling as momma Kiko does the same. I see Mike looking over at me as I just turn my head to look at the roller coaster ride I should try out later in the week. Everyone comes back as Jasmine hands me my Ice tea as she sits by me on my left as Diamond sits on my right. They all eat as I sip on my tea. My kids are all excited asking where they going next. I see Karen with stickers of a few characters on her face. I look at each of my kids and can only smile at each one.