Fourth Down and Inches: A Steamy Tale of Loving Wives – Passionate Romance Story by OlympusMons90
It was a warm September morning in Houston, the city I was born and raised in. It had been two years since I last woke up in my hometown. As I drank my coffee sitting on the front veranda at my parent’s house, all I could think about was that I wanted to see Jessica.
My name is Steve Maxwell, I’m a twenty-five-year-old Assets Manager for a large transport company that has its head office in Houston. I spent my last two years managing at their Chicago office, and now I was happy to be home, more than happy. I missed my family and friends, I missed going to all the places I knew so well, but most of all I missed Jessica Stephenson. I thought back to the last time I saw her, her golden blonde hair, her beautiful blueish-grey eyes, that smile that could power a lighthouse, that body that could lure a thousand sailors. Jessica and I had grown to become a ‘hot’ couple as our friends would refer to us. We were both attractive and fit, both of us outgoing and confident.
Jessica and I had first met when we were both starting high school, with her family living just a block from mine. We quickly became friends and were inseparable for the next five years. We went to the same high school, and we shared the same friends. When we were seniors we were already ‘going’ together and Jessica was of course going to be my Prom date, that was never in question. However, her family moved halfway through our senior year, her father taking a promotion in Phoenix. I was heartbroken and missed Jess madly, it took me almost six months before I even asked another girl out on a date.
I went to the University of Houston to get my CPA, with Jessica attending Arizona State to become a Physiotherapist. Initially we kept in touch, but that communication eventually became less and less until it stopped all together.
During the first couple of years at college, I had a few girlfriends, losing my virginity and learning all about sex in the process. I later found out that Jessica had done likewise.
With a year to go doing my CPA, I got a call from Ray, my best friend. He asked me to get my ass down to our favorite diner as he had a surprise for me. When I walked in, the first person I saw was Jessica sitting there with all of our friends. By the time we left the diner, Jessica and I were back together, almost like we had never been apart. Later that night we had sex together for the very first time, it’s a moment I’ll remember for the rest of my life.
Jessica had completed her studies at Arizona State and had decided to return to Houston, landing a job with a medical center that specialized in physical and sporting injuries, all the while I was doing my final year of my CPA. That year I moved out from my parent’s place to share an apartment with Ray, Jessica had already moved into an apartment with her best friend Diane. I’m not sure which place we spent more time at, but most of it was spent in the bedroom.
When I completed my CPA, I got a job at the transport company I’m still with now, starting out as a junior Assets Manager. A year later, they offered me a huge promotion to be the Assets Manager for their Chicago branch which was a huge step up for me, both financially and career wise. Jessica was loving her job and I couldn’t ask her to quit just to follow me, I also had no idea how long the move to Chicago would be for. It could be just six months, so I decided we should part and see what happened.
Well, the job in Chicago ended up lasting two years, two long years. In the back of my mind, I always knew that I wanted to get back together with and marry Jessica. Our connection had always been so much deeper than with any of the girlfriends I had during college or during my time in Chicago. There’s something about caring for someone so deeply that you would put their happiness before your own, that when you go to sleep at night, they are the last person you think about.
So, I’m sitting here drinking my coffee wondering what to do. I had not spoken to Jessica for the last eighteen months. I thought it was unfair to expect or keep Jess waiting for me when after the first six months at my new job, I already knew I would be in Chicago for a good deal longer. I also knew that like the last time we were separated, both of us would eventually move on and meet other people and I didn’t want to drag out the inevitable.
I decided to call Ray to catch up, like Jessica I had not spoken to him for quite a while as well. I was disappointed to find out that he now lived in Dallas, moving for his work. I thought about calling Jessica, but I was worried about just dropping back into her life again. I had no idea if she was now with someone, she could be engaged or possibly even married now for all I know.
I started my new role this week back in the head office and was glad to meet some new faces, and to see some old. One of the guys I worked with before I left to Chicago was now working for me, his name is Darius. He’s a former college linebacker who never made it further after injuries, so ended up working with me instead. When Friday afternoon rolled around Darius come into the office to talk with me.
“Hey boss, how’s your first week been?”
“Good, and come on Darius, don’t call me boss. That just sounds fucking weird.”
“Yeah, I’m just yanking your chain. So, you up for a few drinks tonight? I know a good bar not far from here.”
“Yeah, I could do with a few beers.”
After five I headed to the bar with Darius and another guy from work named Jack. We got ourselves a round of beers and sat down to discuss work, football and girls, all the important stuff. By about 9pm Darius asked if we were interested in going to a club in midtown, called The Sphere. Jack laughed and said he wasn’t interested.
“What’s up, you don’t like dancing?” Darius asked him.
“Look at me, I’m a red-haired Irishman with freckles, why would I want to go to a hip hop club to watch guys like you get all the girls.”
“Ah come on Jack, you’ll be fine. I’m sure there’s some red-haired Irish girl there that might like you.”
“If a girl like that is there, she’s not looking for someone like me, more like someone like you, big and black.”
“Nah, there’s plenty of white folk there, you’re just making excuses now.”
“Yeah, maybe. But I have to go anyway, I got my kids in the morning and the Ex will get pissed if I’m late or hung-over, so I got to go. I’ll see y’all at work on Monday.”
“Okay, that leaves you and me boss, don’t you start giving me excuses. The night’s still early.”
“Yeah, I’m up for it. Can we go dressed like this though? I’m dressed for the office.”
“You’re fine, half the guys go there in suits to look good, you’ll fit right in.”
We finished our beers and then got a cab to the club in midtown. When we walked in, I thought to myself that Jack was probably right. Whole there were a lot of white folk here, nearly all of them were women. We got a beer at the bar and looked for a table, finding one that was halfway between the bar and the dance floor. Within a minute or so, an attractive older blonde woman named Jacqui who I’m guessing was about twenty-nine or thirty come over and started to chat with us. It was clear she was interested in Darius, he cut an imposing figure.
“Can you mind my beer boss? I’m going to take this fine lady for a dance.”
“Yeah sure, have fun you two.”
No sooner had Darius and Jacqui walked away then another woman came over to the table to say hello. She was a brunette about the same age as myself. She seemed nice enough, reasonably attractive with a nice body. She was tall too, probably about the same as my own height at 5’10, although her heels no doubt gave her one or two inches.
“Are you new in town? I haven’t seen you here before.”
“Yes and no. I was born and raised here, been away for a few years though. Just got back a week ago.”
“You weren’t in prison were you?”
“No, Chicago. Although in winter it felt like I was in prison.”
“So what brings you back home? Miss your family?”
“Work, but I missed my family too. How about you, what do you do?”
Just as I asked her that a rather large black guy interrupted her with a hug, they clearly knew each other. A moment later she said her goodbyes and headed out to the dance floor with him.
I sipped on my beer and looked around, it was a nice club. Good music, plenty of people mingling and chatting, and a lot up dancing too.
I looked over at the dance floor to where Darius was dancing with Jacqui, they were getting all up close and personal. I looked over to the side of the dance floor at some of the women that were sitting at tables when I noticed her.
Sitting at a table on her own, it was Jessica.
Before I could even gather my thoughts, a tall athletic black guy joined her at the table for a moment then took her by the hand and led her to the dance floor. Jess is about 5’4 and had on heels, the guy she was with must have been about 6’4 and very muscular and athletic looking. I thought how in the hell with my first night out back in Houston could I end up at the same club as Jessica, what are the odds of that?
My thoughts were quickly interrupted as I saw Jess put her arms around his neck as they slowly danced, then they both leaned in for a passionate kiss. This was not the re-union with Jess I was hoping for. It was clear that they already knew each other, this was not just some random guy walking up and asking her to dance.
Straight away I felt a pang of jealousy, but I had to remind myself that we hadn’t been together for two years, and that I was the one that had left. I knew for sure though that I didn’t want to hang around to meet Jessica and her boyfriend, I wasn’t ready for that yet. I would wait for Darius to return then make my excuses and leave.
About two songs later Darius and Jacqui returned to the table with Darius having an excited look on his face.
“Do you see who’s here? TJ from the Texans, maybe some of the other players will be here too.”
“You get that excited about a backup corner-back? I’d hate to see how you get if the QB showed up.” I stated and chuckled at Darius.
Trevon James or TJ rarely got game time but did feature for special teams for the Houston Texans.
“He’s been here quite a few times, always with that same pretty little blonde.” Jacqui added.
That clicked in my mind as I realized the pretty little blonde she was referring to was Jessica, it was TJ she was dancing with.
Fuck, Jessica’s dating an NFL player.
“Hey Darius, I have to go, it’s been a good night out though. We’ll have to do it again soon.”
“Hey come on Steve, we just got here.”
“Let him go honey, I’ll make sure to keep you real good company.” Jacqui responded as she gave Darius a kiss on his cheek.
Darius looked at me with a big smile on his face, one that screamed ‘I’m getting laid tonight!’ as I shook his hand and made my way out the door to a waiting cab.
I got up early on Saturday morning, I needed to buy some new clothes so headed into the city. I was done shopping by lunchtime so decided to drop in at what used to be our favorite diner where all of our friends used to meet.
As I walked in, I was surprised to see Diane there in a booth with a guy I assumed is her boyfriend. Diane was or is Jessica’s best friend. Diane spotted me and let out a big squeal and jumped out of the booth and quickly made her way to me holding her arms out for an embrace.
“Oh my god! I can’t believe you would just come strolling in here after all this time!”
“Hey Diane, good to see you.”
After our embrace she took a step back to look me up and down.
“You haven’t changed a bit Steve, you still look good. Have you been working out a bit since I last saw you?”
“Yeah, a little. You look great too Diane, who’s your friend?”
“Oh, come over and join us. This is my husband, Anthony. Anthony, this is one of our old gang Steve. Steve and Jessica were always together.”
“Hey, pleased to meet you Anthony, and you’re married, congratulations.” As I shook Anthony’s hand then we all sat down in the booth.
“So, when did you get back Steve? And are you staying this time?” Diane asked as I looked over the menu.
“Last weekend, and yes I’m staying. I’m working back in the head office now.”
“That’s great, we’ll have to round the gang up so we can give you a proper welcome home.”
“You don’t need to do that for me, I’ll be fine.”
“Nonsense, it’s been a while since we were all together.”
“I’m not sure if Ray will make it, he’s in Dallas now.”
“Yeah, we didn’t see much of Ray after you left. Have you seen Jessica yet?”
“No, not yet.”
I didn’t want to mention that I saw her at the club last night with TJ.
“Well, she’ll be over the moon to see you again.”
“I’m sure she’s moved on over the last two years and found someone new.”
“No, not really. I think she’ll always be waiting for you. Oh, are you with someone Steve? You’re not married or anything?”
“No, I’m single.”
“Thank god, that would have been awkward.”
I just smiled back at Diane, what did she mean that Jess would be always waiting for me? From last night it sure didn’t look that way.
“How’s Jess been doing? She still working at the same medical center?”
“Yeah, she’s still there. She loves working there.”
“Yeah, Jess and the Physio she works for also does some work for the Texans, Jessica gets us free tickets to NRG sometimes.” Anthony added.
“That’s great.”
Now I know how Jessica met TJ I guess, she probably gave him rub downs after training. The waitress came over and took my lunch order, it was good timing as I wanted to change the subject.
“So Diane, what else has been going on for the last two years?”
“Well, Tim and Sheree finally got married, they’ve been together almost as long as you and Jess.”
“That’s good, by the way when did you two get married?”
“In March, here I have some photos for you.”
Diane then proceeded to scroll through her phone before showing me the slideshow. Jessica and Sheree were her bridesmaids, Jessica looked absolutely stunning. All three girls did. One of the photos caught my eye towards the end, it had Diane and her new husband, with the two bridesmaids and their wedding dates. Sheree with Tim, and Jessica with TJ. Diane quickly pulled her phone back when she realized which photo she was showing.
“That’s just someone she knows from work.” Diane quickly added.
“You mean Trevon James form the Houston Texans.” I responded.
“Yeah, like Anthony said she does some work for them. They’re just friends.”
I wasn’t sure why Diane was misleading me, why would she need or want to hide the fact Jess was dating someone, let alone an NFL player. I just nodded back to Diane as my lunch arrived.
“So, what are you doing after lunch Steve? Any plans?
“I’m going apartment hunting. I’ve been staying with my parents, but I need to get my own place.”
“You know Jess has a spare room in her apartment, maybe you could ask her?”
“Nah, that wouldn’t be a good idea, I need to get my own place.”
The very last thing I want is to be in the same apartment while Jess is fucking TJ.
“You’re probably right. But once you’re done with the apartments today, why don’t we catch up for a few drinks somewhere with Jess? I know she’ll want to see you. I can’t believe you’ve been here a week already and not seen her yet.”
“We’ll see. I might be too tired after running around all afternoon.”
“Okay, you still got the same number? I’ll text you later to see what you’re doing.”
“Yeah, still the same number.”
With that Diane and Anthony said their goodbyes, leaving me to finish my lunch.
I looked at four apartments this afternoon and decided that the very first one I checked out was the one I wanted. I drove back to their office and filled in the application.
As I was leaving their office my phone rang, Jessica’s name was displayed.
“Hello.”
“Hi Steve, it’s me. It’s Jessica.”
“Hi Jess, it’s nice to hear your voice.”
“Same here Steve. I hear you’ve been back for a week already?”
“Yeah, I’ve been staying with my parent’s, and I started work back in the head office this week as well.”
Jess was silent for more than a few seconds, before asking.
“Why didn’t you call me? I had to find out from Diane that you were home.”
“I didn’t want to just drop back into your life again, I didn’t know if you were together with someone. It’s been two years.”
Again, Jess was silent.
“So, are you? Have you met someone?” I asked her waiting for the confirmation for her and TJ.
“No, not really.”
Now I was confused, but I thought it best to not push, after all we’re not together so I have no right to dig deeper.
“Would you like to catchup this evening Steve? Diane and Sheree are keen to catchup as well.”
“Yeah, sure. Can you text me the address when you have it? I need to go home and shower and get changed first.”
“Of course. Steve?”
“Yeah?”
Again, Jess went silent for a number of seconds before continuing.
“No, it’s okay, I’ll see you tonight.”
“Bye Jess.”
“Bye.”
Well, that was a difficult call. I knew Jess had things she wanted to say or ask me but obviously didn’t. Then again, I had questions of my own. Like why she would say she wasn’t really with anyone when last night looked a whole lot different? Was she trying to not hurt my feelings? And why? Two years I’ve been away, even if I still have very strong feelings for her, I have no right to expect her to have waited for me or even to still love me.
I arrived at the bar to find everyone there already. Jessica, Diane and Anthony, and Sheree and Tim. I walked over and we did the introductions before taking a seat, one left for me right next to Jess.
For the first hour, we all discussed what we had been up to for the last two years. Jess was the only one that seemed to have very little to add.
Anthony and Tim went to the bar to get some drinks, Diane then got Sheree to join her in the bathroom leaving me alone with Jessica.
“I’m glad you’re home Steve. I’ve missed you.”
“I’m happy to be home too.”
I didn’t add that I missed her like crazy. Knowing that she was with someone, I didn’t want to let her know how I felt. I didn’t want to complicate things.
“Can I ask if you met someone Steve? In Chicago?”
“I met a few women, had a few dates, nothing that really went anywhere. How about you?”
“I didn’t date for about the first twelve months after you left. I was still hoping you would come home, I guess. I’ve had a few dates in the last year, but like you, they didn’t really go anywhere.”
“What about your date in Diane’s wedding photos? The NFL player. Was he one of the ones that didn’t go anywhere?”
Jessica looked at me with what I would call a concerned look on her face.
“That’s different, I know him from work.”
Before we could talk further, Tim and Anthony returned to the table with our drinks, then Diane and Sheree rejoined us as well. We all continued to talk about a range of things while enjoying our drinks. Diane and Sheree both dropped a lot of hints about Jessica and myself, insinuating that we should be together again. When it was my turn to get a round of drinks, Jessica joined me at the bar to help carry them back.
It was clear to me that Diane and Sheree were hoping that we would get back together, much like we had the last time after we had been separated. I couldn’t figure out Jess though, she seemed happy that I was home, but I also knew she was seeing TJ. Was she hiding her relationship with TJ from her friends as well? Would she try to hide it from me too? But why?
I looked at Jess beside me, she looked back at me with a big smile on her face. She seemed like she was enjoying the evening, being with me. I looked back to the bartender and placed our order, then looked up to the TV above the bar. It showed the Texans playing at home but trailing by three at half-time. I couldn’t help but think that Jess was here with me right now because her boyfriend was at work.
I looked back at Jess, her smile was gone. She must have seen my expression when I had looked up at the game. It’s like she knew what I was thinking. We got our drinks and returned to the table.
“The happy couple has returned bearing gifts.” Exclaimed Sheree.
“Yeah, when are you two just going to kiss and get this over with? The sexual tension is getting way too much.” Added Diane.
I didn’t respond as I placed the drinks on the table.
“Hey, come on guys. Steve just got home.” Jess responded.
“But the last time you two met after years apart you ended up in Steve’s bed that night if I remember right.” Diane responded.
“Yeah, I remember. Just, take it easy on us, okay?”
“Alright, but I don’t know what the issue is, I see the way you two have been stealing glances at each other all evening. You’re both still as in love with each other as you’ve always been if you ask me.” Diane stated, making this even more awkward.
Jess didn’t respond to that, we all just sat down in the awkward silence for a bit before Anthony started to talk about getting shots to cheer everyone up.
Over an hour later and a few shots down, I went to the bar to get some shots as well. I looked up at the game, it had ended with the Texans coming from behind to win. When I returned to the table, I noticed that Jess was busy texting with someone. I couldn’t help but think that it was TJ.
The conversation at the table continued to flow, with the exception that Jess had not said anything. I looked at her and she looked deep in thought then shook her head to herself before looking over at me with a sad look in her eyes.
“Hey everyone, I’ve had a great night, but I’m going home now.” Jess announced to the table.
“You still have your shot to drink. Come on Jess at least stay for one more.” Sheree said.
“Sorry guys, I really have to go. I’m working in the morning.”
“But it’s a Sunday?”
“Yeah, it is Diane. I’m helping out with the team tomorrow. Look it’s been great tonight. Steve, can you walk me out for a moment?”
I got up and escorted Jess outside the bar.
“I’m so happy you’re back Steve, I mean that.”
I just nodded back at Jess without saying anything. I could see the frustration in her face, Jess looked away for a moment before looking back at me.
“Will you call me during the week? Can we go to dinner or something? Just the two of us.”
Now it was my turn to look confused. What’s going on? What’s Jess playing at here? I’m giving her the space she needs and now she’s asking me out?
“Look, I don’t know. Let me think about it Jess.”
As if on cue her message tone went off on her phone, no doubt TJ asking if she was on her way to help him celebrate the victory. And I’m sure what kind of celebrating he had in mind.
Jess leaned in and gave me a kiss on the cheek, before getting in one the cabs parked out front of the bar. I figured there was no point in returning inside, so I got in the other cab and went home myself.
On Wednesday morning I got a call from the apartment’s agent informing me that my application was successful, I could move in this Saturday. Then shortly after I got a text from Jess asking me if I was free this evening. I decided I needed to think about it and buried myself back in my work. As 5pm rolled around I remembered that I hadn’t returned her text.
This whole situation is confusing. I know she’s dating TJ but she’s acting like she isn’t. I’m not about to go stepping on someone else’s toes, so if she wants us to get back together, she needs to end it with him first. But what do I text her back? She still thinks I don’t know that her and TJ are a thing.
I texted back ‘Sorry Jess, I have other plans tonight.’
It sounded cold, but I needed her to know that I wasn’t interested. Not while she was with someone else anyway.
When I got to work on Thursday morning, in my usual catchup with some of the guys I noticed that Darius was more than a little zoned out. After we wrapped up, I called him over when the other guys had left.
“Hey big guy, you feeling alright? You look like shit.”
“Yeah, sorry Steve. I was up a bit late last night with Jacqui. That woman never quits.”
“What are you two seeing each other now?”
“Yeah, I guess we are. We hooked up at The Sphere again last night then ended up at her place. That was our ‘third’ date night, if you can call it that.”
“As long as you enjoyed yourself and can do your work the next day.”
“Yeah, I will. It was busy as fuck there last night as well for a Wednesday, even TJ and his little blonde were there again getting all hot with each other. They were practically having sex on the dance floor, lucky prick.”
What the fuck? Jess asks me out for dinner, then when I decline, she hooks up with her boyfriend. Why is she stringing me along? None of this makes any sense.
Friday afternoon and I again went for beers with Darius and Jack. Again, I got a text from Jess but this time I ignored it. On Saturday I packed up my car with the few belongings that I had brought back with me from Chicago and headed off to my new apartment. I had a delivery coming for my new furniture I bought online during the week, so it was going to be a busy day.
It was around noon, and I was still trying to hook up my new TV when my phone rang. It was Jessica calling, I thought about letting it go to message but decided to pick up instead.
“Hi Jessica.”
“Hi Steve. What are you doing today?”
“I’m just moving into my new apartment. I got shit everywhere and I still got some furniture I need to put together.”
“I’m coming over to help then. Send me your address and I’ll be there shortly.”
“You don’t have to do that Jess. I can manage.”
“Just send me the address. Have you eaten lunch yet?”
“No, I hooked up the fridge, got nothing in it yet.”
“Alright, I’ll grab some food and drinks for you on the way over. I’ll be there soon.”
“Okay, bye.”
I have to admit it would be good to have some help, and I was starving too.
About forty-five minutes later Jess pulled up in her car with a few bags of groceries. And two hot burrito’s for lunch.
“How much do I owe you for the food?”
“Nothing, think of it as your housewarming gift.”
“Thanks Jess.”
After we ate lunch I continued to unpack the furniture and putting them together. Jess was removing all the boxes and packing, also helping me by holding the furniture in place while I bolted them together. It was a hot day, we were both sweaty in our t-shirts and jeans when Jessica decided to take her jeans off.
“Jess?”
She looked over at me and saw me shaking my head at the fact she was dressed now only in a loose t-shirt and panties. God it was hard to not stare at her body. Her gorgeous tan, those perfect legs and those wobbling breasts under her t-shirt.
“What? It’s stinking hot. It’s not like you haven’t seen it all before, plenty of times.”
“Yeah, but that was different.”
Jess stopped what she was doing and looked at me.
“Steve, what’s different? First you don’t call me when you get home, then you don’t say much when we meet, you don’t want to go out with me or even text me back. You didn’t even tell me about the apartment or want me to come over today to help. Don’t you feel the same way about me anymore?”
“I feel exactly the same way I always have Jess. And probably always will.”
“So, what is then Steve? Why do I get the impression you’re staying away from me? That you’re not interested in me?”
“Because I don’t go after women that have boyfriends already.”
Jess stared at me silently for a few seconds the sighed.
“You think TJ is my boyfriend, don’t you?”
“Well, is he?”
“No, it’s not like that.”
“So, what is it like? I know you’re not with him today because the Texans are the road this weekend. What about next week though? Will he be texting you to come over so he ‘can’t’ be your boyfriend all night long again? Just like after the game last weekend? That was TJ you left the bar to go and meet up with wasn’t it? I’m guessing you two did a lot of celebrating that night, probably until the early hours of the morning.”
“Steve.”
“What Jess, am I too close to the truth?”
Jess didn’t answer, instead she just stared out the window.
“Look, I know you guys are together, I’ve seen you two together with my own eyes.”
Jess immediately looked back at me with an expression of shock across her face.
“That first week I was back, a guy from work took me to The Sphere that Friday. I saw you with TJ kissing each other, hands all over each other. And you were there with him again on Wednesday after I knocked back your dinner invitation.”
“So, can we please stop pretending you’re not with him. It’s okay, I left and you’ve moved on, I get it. But you acting like I don’t want to get back with you is a bit rich when you already have a boyfriend. There’s nothing I’d like more than to be with you.”
“This isn’t how this was supposed to go Steve. I was heartbroken when you left for Chicago, I would’ve gone with you if you asked me. I spent the next year praying you would come home, I almost quit my job a few times to drive up there and surprise you.”
“Then I met TJ when we started working with the team, he’s been a good distraction for me. I’ve never had feelings for him like I do for you. It’s always just been casual for me and him, something that we both enjoyed, that’s all.”
“So, how was it supposed to go Jess? That I would come home and we would get straight back together like last time?”
“In my mind, yes. That’s what I always wanted.”
“So why then have you continued to see him after I got back? Even leaving me at the bar last Saturday night to go to his place to have sex with him? Or on Wednesday night after I knocked you back?”
“I know, I shouldn’t have done that on Saturday. On Wednesday I was so angry with you for not getting back to me until so late, then to give me that crappy line about having other plans.”
“So, you got revenge on your ex-boyfriend by having sex with your current boyfriend? Do you know how stupid that sounds?”
“He’s not my boyfriend, God Dammit Steve! Stop saying that.”
“But he’s the guy you’re going out with, being intimate with, taking home and having sex with. That sounds a lot like a boyfriend.”
“Well, he’s not. You’re the only real boyfriend I’ve ever had or ever want. This is all so confusing at the moment.”
“Why? Why is it so confusing for you? You say you don’t have feelings for him like you do with me, but when he calls, you go to him. Why are you so in denial that you two are together? It seems clear from where I’m standing.”
“Because we’re not together. This weekend he’ll be fucking some other girl wherever they are playing. And I’m not the only girl he’s with here in Houston either.”
“So, if he kept in it his pants you could then call him your boyfriend? Is that it? That he sleeps around?”
“No, it’s because I don’t love him. It’s because I shouldn’t be with him at all. I work with the team, to say it’s unprofessional is an understatement. I could lose my job.”
“So why flaunt it at the clubs? Everyone knows when an NFL player is there and can see that you’re with him.”
“I know how it looks, it’s hard to explain, especially with you Steve.”
“I’d say it’s because you enjoy being with him, you like fucking him, that’s why.”
Jess rubbed her face with her hands, she looked very uncomfortable with this conversation, looking frustrated or angry.
“Alright, yes! I do love fucking him. Is that what you were waiting to hear? That I feel like such a slut waiting around for him to call me so he can give me a good fucking.”
Jess stormed outside and sat on the stairs out front. When I joined her she was crying softly.
“Hey, come on Jess. I just wanted us to clear the air. To not pretend anymore about what was going on. We’re not together, if you want to have sex with him, that’s your choice. You don’t have to feel bad about it. I was just getting tired of everyone, including you, saying we should be back together when you’re clearly not ready.”
“But I am ready. Do you know how many nights I’ve laid in bed wishing that you were there beside me? That when something happens in my life, my first instinct is to want to tell you about it. I’ve missed you so much Steve.”
“And I’ve missed you too. Every night I was freezing my ass off in Chicago, I wanted to call you just so I could hear your voice.”
“So why didn’t you? Why’d you stop calling or returning my calls? Why didn’t you come home for Thanksgiving or Christmas? I would have gone to you as well, but you never even gave me your address.”
“Jess, I had no idea how long I was going to be there for. I didn’t think it was fair to keep you waiting for me. It was a career choice I made, you shouldn’t have to suffer for that. I didn’t come home for the holidays because I knew I’d find it impossible to leave you again if I did.”
We both then sat there together silently in our own thoughts for a few minutes.
“If I break it off with TJ, whatever this is that me and him have, will you still want me back?”
“Only if you’re ready. You should do what you want to do though, Jess. Don’t feel obligated because all of our family and friends expect us to be together. You have to be ready before I can promise you anything.”
“Do you still love me Steve?”
“Of course I do.”
“And I love you so much, I’ve dreamt about you coming home. And now when you finally do, I’m having trouble letting TJ go.”
“It’s alright, just let me know when you’re ready, okay?”
“Okay.” Jessica leaned over and rested her head on my shoulder.
Another Friday rolled around, this week had been getting better as it went on as I was finally getting into the swing of my new role. The guys I am working with are all good guys and have been helping me greatly, especially Darius.
It was also great having my own apartment, being able to get in the routine of the week and coming home to everything being so new. I didn’t go out during the week, instead playing games on my X-box, or watching Netflix on my new TV. Jess and I had texted back and forward a few times, she refrained from asking me out now which was good.
After lunch I got a text from Jess asking if I wanted to meet up with everyone at the same bar again as a fortnight ago. They are planning on being there by 7pm. I thought why not? It’s not like it’s a date with Jessica if our other friends are there too. Shortly after sending my reply to Jess, Darius came in and asked me out for a few beers. So, I figured sure, a few beers with Darius then dinner and drinks with the gang. Could be a good Friday night.
While having a beer with Darius, I thought I would come clean about the hot little blonde he had been seeing with TJ at the club. I didn’t want him to meet Jess later and to put his foot in it in front of everyone.
“Hey Darius, you know that hot little blonde that goes to The Sphere with TJ from the Texans?”
“Me? I don’t know her, I sure would love to though. That is one fine-ass woman.”
“No, I didn’t mean if you knew her, I was meaning if you remembered her?”
“Well, yeah of course I remember her. She’s the hottest piece of ass in the club every time she’s there. Who wouldn’t remember her?”
“Okay, can you stop for a second and let me finish.”
“Okay, sure boss.”
“Her name is Jessica Stephenson. She’s been my girlfriend since we started high school.”
“Oh fuck Steve, I’m sorry man, I didn’t mean that shit I just said.”
I laughed at how awkward Darius was at that revelation.
“Are you just yanking my chain now boss?”
“Nah, what I said is the truth. And for fuck sake stop calling me boss already.”
“Sure thing boss.” As Darius laughed at himself.
“So, is she your girlfriend now? Wait, you’re not one of those kinky mutha fuckers that likes to watch his girl getting banged by some big black cock are ya? Just saying if you’re asking me to help out, I’d be happy to take one for the team. Just saying.”
Now it was my turn to laugh at Darius.
“No, I’m not asking you to ‘help out’. We’ve not been together since I left for Chicago. I just wanted to let you know who she was in case you run into both of us together and you don’t start bringing up TJ or something stupid.”
“So, are you guys together now or not?”
“No, we’re just friends. We hang out together sometimes with our other friends we grew up with.”
“So, what I’m hearing is that I could still get some action then?”
“Fuck you, Darius.” As we both laughed.
“So why wouldn’t you want me to bring up TJ? She’s his woman after all.”
“It’s complicated. She works for the Texans as a Physio, she’s not meant to be fucking the players.”
“Ah, okay. Got it. I’ll keep my mouth shut then, no problem.”
“Anyway, I’m going to catch up with her as soon as I finish this beer. We’re having some dinner and drinks with some friends.”
“You want me to tag along? Maybe I can take her mind off TJ, for a few hours at least.”
“Darius, she wants to get back together with me, so can you drop all the innuendos thanks.”
“And what about you? You want her back too? After she’s been fucking the entire football team?”
“TJ’s the only one she’s been fucking that I know of.”
“I don’t know Steve, experience showed me that when one of them snow bunnies decides to fuck the players, it rarely ended with just one. I’ve seen girls take on the entire Secondary in a single night.”
“Look, I’ll be honest with you Darius, I’m probably going to end up marrying her, so can you drop all this shit, thanks.”
“Sure Steve, I can do that.”
We finished our beers, then said our goodbyes as I headed to the other bar to catch up with the gang.
“About time you showed up Steve.” Exclaimed Diane as I walked up to their table.
“It’s only 7:15. Fifteen minutes isn’t late.”
“We got here a bit early, good to see you two again though.”
Diane was obviously referring to Jessica and myself, and they had left the seat beside Jessica for me as well. It was clear to me that Jess had not told Diane or Sheree that she was dating TJ. I’m probably going to have to put up with all the ‘why aren’t you two together already’ bullshit all over again. I asked who needed drinks then went to the bar to order. As I stood waiting for the barmen, I realized Jess was standing beside me, she still hadn’t even said hello yet.
“I take it Diane and Sheree don’t know about you and TJ still being together? Are we going to have to put up with them playing matchmakers all night again?”
“No, they don’t know. And Steve, me and TJ are not ‘together’. Hopefully there won’t be anything to tell soon anyway.”
“And why’s that?”
“Because I didn’t see TJ at all this week, and I’m not planning on seeing him this weekend either.”
“Are they on the road or at home this weekend?”
“At home. They play on Sunday.”
“Did you speak to him, or are you just avoiding him?”
“Avoiding him, I guess. I haven’t figured out what to say to him yet. I know we’re not together like a proper relationship so it shouldn’t be that hard, it’s just that it’s hard to talk to him about it.”
“Okay.”
“Okay what?”
I looked at Jess, it was like she was trying to start an argument with me.
“Just okay, nothing else.”
Jess was still looking at me, but then I heard a sigh escape her lips.
“Sorry, it’s just that I wish this was over already and I didn’t have to talk to him.”
“Why is it so difficult for you to talk to him?”
“Because, well, just because okay.”
I think I was beginning to understand. She was worried he might talk her out of it or talk her into bed.
“You find him really sexy, don’t you?”
Jessica looked at me with a puzzled look on her face.
“Well, yeah I do. Why would you say that though?”
“That’s why you’re avoiding him. You’re worried if you talk with him you might end up in bed with him instead.”
“Steve, that’s not true. I have a little more self-control than that, thank you.”
The barman then interrupted us by asking for our order then walked away. We stood there in silence for a minute or so.
“Okay, maybe you’re right, just a little bit. I don’t want to be with him though. If that makes sense.”
“No, not really. If I don’t want to sleep with a girl, I have no problem telling her that without fear I’ll end up fucking her instead. It sounds like you only say you don’t want him, when you still do.”
Jess gave me an angry look, but before she could retort the barman came back with our drinks, so she kept quiet.
We carried the drinks back to the table and took our seats. I could tell Jess was still wanting to say something to me but couldn’t now in front of everyone.
“Well, this is all cozy, isn’t it? All three couples here together.” Sheree stated.
“You meant two married couples, and two single friends, didn’t you?” I replied.
“Oh come on, Steve. We know you guys left together last time we were here, and Jess was over your apartment last weekend. It’s obvious you guys hooked back up, why are you two trying to hide it from us?” Diane added in.
I looked at Jess with a ‘told you so’ expression.
“You guys, please stop, okay. We’re not back together, not yet. Just give us some space please and stop trying to play cupid.” Jess responded for me.
Both Diane and Sheree had confused looks across their faces, they were sure that we were already together.
“Okay, not another word while you two figure it out, promise.” Diane responded.
“Agreed, but if either of you want to talk about it.” Sheree added before Jess looked at her with attitude.
“Okay, fine. I’ll keep my mouth shut.” Sheree finally added.
Thankfully Tim changed the conversation for us, and we continued on for the rest of the night without it being too awkward. At about 11pm I was feeling a little bit drunk and told everyone I was ready to get a cab home when Jess told the group she was going to leave too.
I looked at Jess, she was going to fuel their ideas if we left together again, but Jess didn’t look like she cared right then, feeling the drinks like I was. We both said our goodbyes and made our way out of the bar, standing out the front waiting for a cab.
“You know they’ll think we’re going home together again, don’t you?”
“Then why disappoint them?”
“Jess, you know why.”
Jess then turned and stepped up to me planting a very passionate kiss on my lips. I couldn’t help but respond, I had been desperately waiting to do this for the last two years. My arms instinctively wrapped around her body as our tongues met in each other’s mouths. How I’ve missed this, missed her.
When we finally broke our kiss, I took a step back.
“You can’t do this to me Jess. This isn’t fair.”
“What’s not fair? I’ve loved you from the first time we met. I can’t stand to be around you and to not be yours.”
“Except for when your fuck buddy calls, then you can happily leave me like last time, right?”
Jess slapped me across the face. She recoiled holding her hands up to her face, shocked by her own action.
“I’m so sorry Steve. Oh God, I didn’t mean to do that, I swear.”
“No, it’s alright. I shouldn’t have said that.”
I could see Jess beginning to cry, she was still holding her hands up to her face. I stepped over and hugged her. Just then a cab showed up and we both got in, I figured I would drop her off at her apartment first which was not that far from my new place. We didn’t say anything on the way, but as we pulled up to her place Jess looked up at me.
“Steve, can you come inside please? Can we talk for a while?”
“What about? We’ve said everything that needs to be said.”
“I just need you to be here with me, please?”
I looked into her eyes, I knew where this might end up if I were to go into her apartment. I’m not sure I could resist her right now.
“I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“I promise I’ll keep my hands to myself, I just want you here with me tonight. Just as friends, okay?”
Fuck. Against my better judgement I relented.
“Okay, you promise not to seduce me though, right?”
“Agreed, unless you want me too.”
“Come on, let’s get inside.”
I paid the cab driver and we went inside, Jess heading into her bedroom to get changed. She came back out wearing a long t-shirt, holding some clothes in her hands.
“Why don’t you put these on.”
Jess handed me the clothes, my initial thoughts were that they probably belonged to TJ, but I recognized the t-shirt and shorts she handed me.
“I can’t believe you still have these. You haven’t let anyone wear them in the meantime I hope?”
“Just me. I’ve worn the t-shirt quite a few times, it helped to remind me of you.”
After getting changed I came back out to the lounge room to find jess making us drinks.
“No more alcohol for me thanks, I’ve had enough already.”
“I’m making fruit smoothies, no alcohol.”
“Okay, great.”
We both sat down on the couch, with the TV on with some movie playing in the background. Jess was leaning in against my shoulder as we sat there, pretending to watch the TV and drinking our smoothies.
“Can I ask you something Steve?”
“Like you’re not going to ask anyway.”
“Before you left for Chicago, did you ever think about asking me to marry you?”
I looked at Jess, she was staring up into my eyes. That wasn’t a question I was expecting.
“Well, honestly, yeah. Many times. Even after I moved to Chicago I thought about coming back to ask you so we could be there together.”
“Steve, I was hoping so much that you would, every week that we were together after college I was hoping you would ask me. Can I ask why you didn’t? Why you didn’t ask me to marry you?”
“I honestly don’t know why before I got offered the job in Chicago. I wanted to, I’m not sure why I didn’t. Once I got offered the promotion, like I told you before, I didn’t think it was fair to ask you to leave your family and friends. You liked your job as well, I just didn’t want to ruin that for you.”
“But that was my decision to make, did you ever think about that? You took that choice away from me.”
“I know, I thought I was doing the right thing for you though.”
“I know you thought that, but it wasn’t your decision to make on your own.”
I didn’t know what to say to that. Yeah, I know I fucked it up, but I didn’t mean to.
“Can you promise me something now then Steve? That from now on you don’t make any decisions about us without me. No matter if you think you’re doing what’s right for me or not.”
“Alright, I promise. You do realize that right now there is no ‘us’ though, right? We’re not back together just because you kissed me and I’m sitting here with you now.”
“Are you making a decision without me again?”
I laughed at her, she was just being cheeky now.
“We are back together Steve, you just don’t know it yet.” Jess added with a sly grin across her face.
“Is that right? Sounds like you just decided something without me.”
Jess smiled and put her head back on my shoulder.
I woke up on the couch, I could hear Jess in the kitchen cooking something. I slowly got to my feet and stretched before walking over.
“Good morning, just making some breakfast. You want coffee?”
“Yeah, sure. Let me make it while you’re cooking.”
Her kitchen is not that big, so with both of us in there It was pretty tight. Having Jess that close to me, being able to smell her, I did my best to not wrap my arms around her even though I wanted to. God I wanted to.
I poured our coffee as Jess put the bacon with eggs onto our plates and we sat down at her small dining table. We kept looking up at each other as we silently ate our breakfast. Jess was smiling at me with that loving smile she always used to give me, the one that just melts me every time.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“What’s the big smile for then?”
“I’m just happy right now.”
“Yeah, me too.”
We finished our breakfast and was washing the plates.
“Why don’t you go have a shower, you can put your old clothes back on then.”
“Why, do you want to keep these ones?”
“Yep. You get them back when we’re living together.”
“Alright.”
I stood in the shower, enjoying the water rushing through my hair when I noticed that Jess was standing in the bathroom leaning against the basin.
“Really? You have to stand there watching me naked in the shower?”
“I always loved looking at you naked, I think you’re in even better shape now than I remember. Would you like me to join you?”
“You promised not to seduce me, remember?”
“You’re no fun. Alright, I’ll leave you be then.”
“Jess.”
“Yeah?”
“I think my back needs washing, care to help?”
Jess lifted her t-shirt off to reveal her naked body. She stepped in the shower behind me grabbing the washcloth and started to soap up my back.
“Why don’t you turn around so I can wash your front too.”
When I turned around Jess started to soap me down, rubbing the cloth all over my body. I looked down at her, at her beautiful body with those gorgeous large breasts right in front of me. She looked up into my eyes, and I felt her hands start to fondle and stroke my cock.
“Fuck you’re so beautiful, you’re still the prettiest girl I’ve ever met.”
“Then kiss me already.”
I leaned down and our lips met, my hands began searching out every inch of her body. In no time I was hard in her hands, and Jess lifted one of her legs up for me to hold as she slid my cock inside of her pussy.
Jess wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled herself up, with me instinctively placing my hands under her ass to support her as she wrapped her legs around me and impaled herself down on my cock.
We kissed passionately again as I raised her hips up a little to let gravity drop her all the way down. Jess began to grind against me as well, she was moaning loudly now as we broke our kiss. Her eyes were looking directly into mine, I could see her passion and craving in the way she looked at me.
“Oh god Steve, I’m going to cum. Kiss me, kiss me now.”
Our mouths met again, there was urgency in the way she kissed me. The whole moment felt so erotic, I was going to explode if we kept going like this.
Her moans were now becoming screams as she leaned her head back and climaxed hard. I couldn’t hold back any longer and came hard inside of her, my legs felt like almost giving way which would have sent us crashing to the ground. Somehow, I was able to keep it together as I watched as Jess looked back into my eyes with a huge smile across her beautiful face.
“Oh my god, that was so intense. That felt so good Steve.”
I lifted Jess off from my softening cock as she released her legs from around my waist. We stood there in each other’s embrace, and began kissing again, slowly this time.
“So, what now?’
“That’s up to you Jess.”
“Yeah, I know. I’ll deal with it I promise.”
I left for home shortly after. Now I was hopeful everything with Jess would turn out alright.
On Sunday we all decided to meet downtown in Discovery Green for lunch, so I picked up Jess on the way. It wasn’t quite as warm today as it had been, so it was beautiful weather to be outside at the park with friends. Again, Jess sat with me as we all talked and ate, though this time she would secretly rest her hand on my thigh, or even hold my hand briefly while no-one was watching. It may have just been a bit of teasing on her part, but she made me want to ravish her after every time she did it.
Diane and Sheree for their part, had relented on the matchmaking which made it easier to enjoy the day. At one point, Jess let her hand trail from my upper thigh to my groin, ever so lightly grazing across my cock. She was killing me, she knew exactly what she was doing to me.
The next time she did it, I could no longer hold back and turned to her and kissed her hard. I could hear the gasps come from Diane and Sheree as I kissed Jessica, after insisting to them that we were most definitely not together, now our mouths were locked together, making out like desperate teenagers.
When I broke the kiss, Jess with a huge smile gave the most devilish giggle as she knew she’d won.
“Damn, I hope you’re not going to tell us you’re not back together now Steve. Where did that come from?” Asked Diane.
“I guess I was building up to it.”
Jess gave me another quick kiss on my lips then put her head down on my chest, arms around me. She was happy that she could now show her affection for me without trying to hide it.
“Well, it took a few weeks this time, but I’m so happy you two finally figured it out.” Sheree added with a warm smile on her face. She then leaned over to Tim and planted her own kiss on his cheek.
As we left the park, Jess and I were holding hands as we made our way back to my car.
“You knew exactly what you were doing to me, and what I’d do.”
“It was fun to see how long you could hold out though. You didn’t last as long as I thought you would.”
I shook my head at Jess, god I loved this woman.
When I dropped her home, she asked me in. This time there was no pretense about how much I wanted her. I happily accepted and spent the rest of the afternoon making love to her.
While Jess made us some dinner, I sat watching her, knowing that she still needed to deal with TJ before we could really be together again. She needed to do it soon though, I wasn’t prepared to share her, not now, not ever.
This week has been good, better than good. Monday and Tuesday nights I stayed at Jessica’s apartment, Wednesday night she stayed at mine. It finally felt like we were truly a couple again, in love and enjoying spending every second together that we could. On Thursday she texted me to let me know she was going to the Texans training facility for work, and that she would try to talk with TJ to finally end their ‘relationship’.
It was a good feeling to know that hopefully after today, we could really be back together again with nothing or no-one getting in our way.
I hadn’t made plans with Jessica for after work, but I was keen to find out how her ‘talk’ with TJ had gone. While they were never in a proper relationship, they had been in a sexual relationship for ten months now, and no doubt there were some strong feelings between them.
As I was leaving work at 5pm, I texted Jess to see if she wanted me to come over. By the time I got home I still had no reply from her, she must be working still. I went and showered, then played a game on my X-box to pass the time.
When I checked the time, it was after 8pm and I still hadn’t heard back from Jess. Okay, now I was getting concerned. I had told her that the reason she’d been avoiding TJ the last week was because that maybe she still wanted him, that she might not be able to say no to his advances. Now fear crept inside me as I worried that I was right. That right now she could be fucking him, after we were together again.
I grabbed my car keys and wallet and jumped into my car. It was after 8:30pm by the time I arrived at Jessica’s apartment, I could see her sitting on her apartment stairs.
As I approached her, I could see that she was crying. I sat down beside her, trying to gather my thoughts without wanting to accuse her of anything. For about a minute we sat there without speaking, Jess then looked up at me from her crying.
“I’m so sorry Steve. I don’t know what to say.”
“What happened?”
“I tried to speak with TJ at training, but there were too many people around. He said he would come over after training to talk.”
“What time did he come over?”
“It was just after four.”
“And when did he leave?”
“About twenty minutes ago.”
I looked away from Jess, rubbing my hands through my hair. I can’t believe this.
“So tell me, did you actually end it with him or not?”
“No, I’m not sure.”
“Fuck!” I got up and started walking towards my car.
“Steve.”
I stopped and turned to face her.
“No Jess, you’re the one that’s been pushing for us to be together again. I told you that you needed to end this with him first. But you didn’t, and now you’re still fucking him? Before Saturday I had no right to be jealous or angry. But now, well now we’re no longer together again either. So, you can go fuck him all you want!”
With that I got into my car and drove away. This was not such a good week after all.
As I was wrapping up work on the Friday afternoon, I checked my phone. I had six texts and two missed calls from Jessica. I had placed my phone on silent after her first text this morning. I was in no mood to hear what she had to say, even if it was to again say sorry.
I didn’t go for a beer with Darius and Jack, I didn’t go anywhere but home. Right now, I didn’t want to talk with anyone.
On Saturday I decided to go over to my parent’s place to spend some time with them. Neither my mom nor dad knew that I had gotten back together with Jess last weekend, so I didn’t need to explain that we were no longer together now.
When I got to my parent’s place around 10am, I was surprised to see my older brother Matt there with his wife Natasha and their two kids. They live in Florida, not far from Orlando, so I was not expecting to see them.
“I was about to call you Steve, look who’s here.” My mom said as I approached the front verandah.
“Hi Mom, hey Matt.” As Matt gave me a big bear hug, then I hugged Mom and Dad as well.
“Good to see you Steve, I thought you were still in Chicago.”
“I got back a month ago, damn it’s good to see you. How’s Tasha and the kids?”
“They’ll be back out in a minute, Tasha’s just getting them changed. Were all heading to the pool, why don’t you come along with mom and dad. We’re going to have lunch there too.”
“Yeah, that sounds good.”
We arrived at the Bellaire pool and got a table, the kids were in the pool within seconds. Mom and Dad went and sat at the side of the pool with their legs in the water to watch them, with Natasha joining the kids in the water. That left me and Matt sitting at the table.
“So, how’s work, did you get promoted when you got back home?”
“Yeah, I did. Work’s been good, I got a good crew so that makes it a lot easier. How about you, still doing the house building?”
“Yeah, I’m the foreman now. More money but more headaches too.”
“How long are you in Houston for?”
“Only a few days to see you guys, then we’re off to San Antonio before we start heading back home.”
“How’s Tasha been doing looking after the kids? Is she back at work yet or staying home?”
“She’s been great, she’s still at home. I’ve been doing long hours for the last few months and Tasha’s been great covering for me. So, how about Jessica, are you two back together now you’re home?”
“We were, but not anymore.”
“What? Has something happened?”
“Yeah, it’s complicated. But the end is that we’re not getting back together.”
“Come on Steve, this is the girl you’ve been in love with since you were teenagers. What’s so complicated?”
“Well, she was already seeing someone when I got home. She said she would end it with him, meanwhile she was pushing the whole time to get back with me. So, we got back together last Saturday, then I found out on Thursday she was still fucking the other guy.”
“Ahh sorry. How long has she been seeing the other guy for?”
“About ten months.”
“And you expected her to ditch him for you straight away?”
“No, I told her we wouldn’t get back together while she was still with him. She’s the one that didn’t want to wait.”
“So, I’m confused, was she cheating on him with you, or cheating on you with him?”
“They were never in a normal relationship according to Jess. She works with the guy.”
“So, ten months of hook-ups?”
“Yeah.”
“Where does she work now? I thought she went to college to be a physio?”
“Yeah, she is. She works for a medical center that specializes in sports injuries. They do work for the Houston Texans. The guy she’s been seeing is one of the players she’s physio for.”
“Really? She’s seeing an NFL player? Who is he?”
“Trevon James.”
“Can’t say I’ve heard of him.”
“He’s a backup that plays special teams.”
“And she was with him after you two got back together?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay, fuck sorry to hear that. No chance you can get back together then?”
“Matt, she still works with the guy. She was meant to break it off on Thursday and ends up fucking him instead. How can I ever trust her to be around this guy and not be fucking him? If it was one of the girls I was with when Jess was in Phoenix, or when I was in Chicago, then maybe. As long as I was getting mine too, I probably would’ve been okay with it. But not Jessica. I can’t do that with her, not ever.”
“You still love her, don’t you?”
“Yeah of course I do. But that’s why I can’t do this. I can’t be with her, in love with her, and not trusting her the whole time. I can’t do it.”
“Yeah, I’d be the same way with Tasha, it would kill me.”
We both sat there watching the kids play in the water, both were busy splashing their mom.
“When we get back to mom and dad’s after lunch, what say you, me and dad sit out the back with a few beers and forget all about women for a little while?” Matt asked.
“Sounds good.”
It was good talking to my older brother about it, somehow it made me feel at ease. Maybe it really was over for me and Jess. I never thought I could think that, but there it was.
Over the next few days I got a couple more texts from Jessica asking if we could talk, and a couple of phone calls that I let go through to message. I knew eventually I would have to talk with her, but I wasn’t ready yet. I was still too angry to be able to have any sort of rational conversation with her.
The following Wednesday, as I walked up to my apartment door after work, I was surprised to see Jessica sitting there waiting for me.
“What are you doing here Jess?”
“I needed to talk with you and you wouldn’t return my calls.”
“I wonder why?”
I unlocked my door and went inside with Jess following me. I stood on one side of the kitchen bench, with Jess standing on the other. I looked at her but didn’t say anything. Jess looked sad, almost timid. I was tired and not sure I could listen to her make excuses without yelling at her.
“I fucked up. I never should have met him at outside of work. I’m so sorry.”
“Why does it matter where you were, you still fucked him?”
“It would have been easier to end it with him at work.”
“Then what happens the next time he shows up at your apartment, will you fuck him then too because you can’t help yourself?”
“No, I’ve already ended it with him, I did it on Friday. And that was at my place too.”
“Before or after you fucked him again?”
“We didn’t have sex on Friday. I broke it off with him, that’s all we did.”
“So why are you here Jessica? Were you hoping that now that you say that you’ve finally ended it with him, that we could get back together like it never happened?”
“I don’t know, right now I’m just hoping you don’t hate me.”
I just shook my head, I might not hate her, but I was angry and heart broken.
“What does it matter whether I hate you or not Jess, we won’t be seeing each other anymore so it shouldn’t matter.”
Jess looked up at me with tears welling up in her eyes.
“How can we ever be together Jess, you work with the guy and I can’t ever trust that you could keep your legs closed if he wants to make a move on you. I can’t do that with you.”
“I’ll stop working with the team, I’ll never see him again.”
“But Jess, I don’t want to be looking over my shoulder wondering where you are every second of the day, wondering if he is with you. The problem is that you still wanted him, or you would have broke it off when you first decided to get back with me. But you couldn’t do it, you kept fucking him after I got back, and you had to fuck him again even after we were together. How can I ever trust you again?”
“I promise I’ll make it up to you, every day. You won’t ever have to worry about that ever I swear.”
“I can’t take that risk, Jess. I just can’t. I love you too much to live my life in constant fear that you can’t keep that promise.”
“No, I refuse to believe that Steve. You’re the only man I’ve ever loved, the only one I will ever love. I’m so sorry that I found it hard to break it off with him when you got back, that it took me too long. But I never loved him, I have only ever loved you.”
“You say that, but we got back together and you said you loved me. How can you then fuck someone else you tell me you never loved? Either you’re lying to me about being in love with me, or you’re lying about how much you love him. Which is it?”
“I’m not lying about being in love with you, you have to know that. And I’ve never been in love with him, at all.”
“So why did you fuck him, after we were together?”
Jess closed her eyes, tears were running down her cheeks.
“I don’t know, I’m so sorry.”
“Not good enough. Why’d you do it? Tell me the truth or you can walk out that door forever.”
“Steve.”
“Answer me Jess, why?”
Jess replied in almost a whisper.
“Because I love fucking him. I’ve told you that before.”
“Still doesn’t explain why. Was it because you can’t help yourself? Or is it because you’d rather fuck him than me?
“No. I love fucking you.”
Jess then took a deep breath.
“Maybe I was weak, maybe I couldn’t help myself with him. That only after you walked away from me was when I got the courage to end it with him. When I knew I could lose you.”
“So how am I supposed to trust you if you are too weak to say no to him? What happens next time?”
“There will never be a next time. I found the courage from the feeling I have knowing I might lose you, I don’t ever want to feel this way again.”
I stood there silently for a minute, thinking through what I should do.
“I need time Jess, right now I’m still too heartbroken over what you did.”
“Can I still see you, even if just as friends for now?”
“No, I can’t do ‘friends’ with you anymore. I’m either with you or I’m not. Right now, I need some time to figure it out.”
“Okay, I can do that. Can I at least keep in touch with you?”
“Sure, just texts though.”
Jess nodded and wiped her tears from her face. She slowly made her way towards the front door.
“Jess.”
“Yeah?”
“If I find out that your still seeing TJ or anyone else now, we really will be done for good. It’s your choice. You either wait for me to figure it out, or you make the decision for me.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll be waiting. Bye Steve.”
The next few weeks I tried to not think about Jess, I didn’t really have a plan for how I would figure out if I still wanted us to be together other than by trying to not think about it at all. Jess texted me about twice a week, asking how I was and reminding me that she was ready to talk whenever I was, and that she loved me. I did reply to her, but just stated I wasn’t ready yet.
When I did finally think about Jess and my muddled thoughts about what had happened, I tried to do what I usually did at work when weighing up proposals, you do the PROS and CONS, and assign a weighting to them.
The obvious CON was that she slept with her, I’m not even sure what to call him, boyfriend, fuck buddy, whatever. She slept with him after we were back together again.
The PRO to this is that you could argue that if TJ was her boyfriend, then really it was me that was the ‘other man’ and not TJ at all. Also, that while she was supposed to end it with TJ on the Thursday, she did end it with him the very next day. So, could you call this a farewell fuck? And in that context was it really that bad considering they had been seeing each other for ten months?
The next CON was that she works with him, and that he will have every opportunity to talk her back into his bed again.
The PRO to that is if Jess agrees to not work with the Texans any longer, it could nullify this CON.
Then there is the CON of whether I can trust her, will I always be suspicious of where she is, who she is with?
The PRO to this is that Jess could have lied to me when I showed up at her apartment that Thursday night. She could have said that nothing happened, but she didn’t. She was sitting out the front crying and admitted it to me straight away. That doesn’t mean I can trust her, but that she was at least honest with me and understood before I even showed up that what she had done was wrong.
Then finally there is the PRO that I am still absolutely in love with her. The CON is that perhaps one day I could get over her and meet someone else that I could love, maybe not like I love Jess but close enough to be happy.
As far as weighting, well who the fuck knows, my head was hurting just thinking about all this. My anger was subsiding a bit though, so maybe thinking it through was helping, but I still felt like shit.
I kept myself busy with work, only enjoying the occasional beer with Darius and Jack as a distraction. And so it was this Friday in mid-November. We got to the bar and I went up and ordered a round. When I got back to the table only Darius was there.
“Where’s Jack? I just bought him a beer?”
“He popped outside, his Ex just called him about the kids.”
“Okay, well cheers to another week being over.” As I raised my beer with his.
“Hey, did you hear about your boy, TJ?”
“He’s definitely not ‘my boy’, but what is it?”
“He got traded to the Colts.”
“Really? When was that?”
“It was in the sports pages today. Maybe now you can get your girl back.”
I hadn’t told Darius about what had happened, or that Jess had ended it with him three weeks ago now. Maybe Jess wouldn’t have to stop working with the Texans after all.
“Have you seen TJ at The Sphere lately? With Jessica?”
“Nope, haven’t seen either of them there for a number of weeks now I guess.”
I just nodded as Jack made his way back to the table.
“Fucking women, they do my head in.” Jack said in a frustrated tone.
“What have you done wrong this time?” Darius prodded.
“It’s not that, I think Beth just asked me out, I think she wants to get back together with me.”
“At least you might get to see your kids more.” I responded.
“Hey, did you leave her, or did she leave you?” Darius asked.
“What does that matter right now?” I asked Darius.
“Well, if my ginger boy here fucked up, then that’s a good thing. If she left him for another guy, well that might not mean much.”
We both looked at Jack for his answer.
“Yeah, I fucked up okay. So, I guess it’s good. It’s just that she was busting my balls the last time we spoke, so I don’t know why now she wanted to apologize for that, then wanted to make it up to me by us going for dinner.”
“Do you want to get back with her? Do you still love her?” I asked.
“Yeah I do, to both questions. I just don’t understand why she might have had a change of heart after twelve months of being a total bitch to me.”
“Maybe she isn’t angry with you anymore. Maybe she knows what a good dad you are to her kids. Or just maybe she misses that little ginger prick of yours.” Darius offered with a big laugh at his own punchline.
“Yeah, maybe. I guess I’ll find out tomorrow night.”
“I hope it goes well for you Jack.” I added.
“Yeah, me too.” Jack responded.
I got home from the bar and had a shower. I sat down on the couch and thought about Jack and Beth, that maybe Jess and I could get past this if I was no longer angry with what happened.
I picked up my phone and looked at the text Jess had sent me earlier today. She was checking in on me, I had texted back a usual ‘I’m doing okay’ type of response.
I called her.
“Hi Steve.”
“Hey Jess, how are you?”
“I’m good, I guess. How about you? It’s good to hear your voice again.”
“Yeah, it’s good to hear yours too.”
I was silent for a few seconds, I was trying to figure out why I wanted to call her. Did I just want to hear her voice, or was I ready to start talking with her again?
“Are you busy right now? You’re not out with Diane and Sheree, are you?”
“No, I’m at home. I’ve not been going out much. Did you want to talk?”
“Yeah, I would like that. Can I come over?”
“Yes, of course. When?”
“I’m leaving now, I’ll see you in ten minutes.”
“Okay, bye.”
I’m not sure what I’m doing, I just had a strong desire to go see her. As I pulled up out front of her apartment, I could see Jess sitting on the steps like the last time I was here. Hopefully this time things would go better.
As I walked up to her, she stood up to greet me.
“Hi Steve.”
“Hey Jessica.”
I followed her inside and we sat down on the couch. Jess was looking at me, not saying anything, waiting for me to start talking.
“Alright, I’m going to admit I didn’t really have a plan to come over right now to see you. I don’t have a speech or questions, or anything really thought out before I decided to come here. I’m not sure why I’m here to be honest with you.”
“That’s okay, I’m just happy you’re here. We can just sit and watch TV if you want.”
I nodded and Jess turned on the TV. We started watching something, I’m not sure what because I was too busy thinking about Jess, and what I wanted to say to her.
After about twenty minutes of watching the TV, I spoke.
“You know I’ve loved you from when we started high school, right?”
“Yeah, I know. Me too, I didn’t even like boys before I met you.”
“I remember the day a year or two later when I asked you to officially be my girlfriend, and you kissed me on the cheek and said yes. Then we held hands walking back from the park. I was so proud of myself right then, I was like Yeah! The prettiest girl in school is MY girlfriend.”
Jess giggled at that recollection, shaking her head.
“Then by the time we were in our senior year, I so much wanted to have sex with you but I was holding off for Prom night, I wanted it to be special. Then your family ups and moves, and I never got the chance.”
“I know, I regret that you weren’t my first. My first was so forgettable Steve, I wish it never happened.”
“Mine wasn’t much better. I remember laying in bed with her afterwards and thinking to myself how much I wished that girl was you. And the other girls I slept with, I was always comparing them to you even though we still hadn’t even had sex yet. In my fantasies, I had fucked you so many times already.”
Jess reached out and took a hold of my hand.
“Then when I walked into the diner that day and you were sitting there, looking just as beautiful as I remembered you. Those three years just vanished, all I wanted was for us to be right where we were when you left.”
“I remember I got butterflies in my stomach when I looked up and saw you at the door. I’d waited three years to see you again. I don’t think I said much while we were there, I was so full of emotions it probably would have come out sounding weird. I just held your hand and kept staring at you like a crazy woman.”
“Yeah, and later that night, I’ll never forget it.”
“Me too. Even when I’m an old woman I’ll still remember that night.”
I was silent for a few seconds while I looked back at the TV.
“I should have married you Jess, after you got back. It’s my biggest regret so far, that I didn’t marry you and we could’ve been together this entire time.”
“I know, I feel the same. But, we’re still young. We still have our entire lives ahead of us.”
“Yeah, but we could have avoided all this shit if I had just manned up and asked you to marry me when I should have.”
“Well, feel free to man up and ask me whenever you like. You know what my answer will be.”
I looked into her eyes, then I leaned over and kissed Jessica on the lips. She kissed me back, putting her hand behind my head to pull me in. The kiss was long and sensuous, this wasn’t like we were teenagers, but more like two people in love.
When I ended the kiss, I stood up and took Jess by the hand, then led her to the bedroom.
We took our clothes off then laid down on the bed and embraced each other again, kissing and gently rubbing our hands over each other’s bodies. I was I no rush to begin fucking, I wanted this to be us re-connecting together again. We didn’t talk, but I did look into her eyes for minutes as I kissed her and continued to fondle her body.
Eventually, Jess maneuvered herself to be laying on top of me, she slowly started to move down, kissing my chest, my stomach, then down to my cock. She looked back up into my eyes as she placed my hard seven-inch cock to her lips, then began to suck. I closed my eyes and put my head back. I’ve had plenty of great blowjobs from Jessica, but this one felt special.
She played gently with my balls as she tried to take as much of my cock into her mouth as she could. After several minutes, it was driving me crazy and I knew I would have to get her to stop soon or it might be too late.
I pulled her up and rolled her over, then slowly moved down her body to provide her with the same experience Jess had given me. I took my time, enjoying her taste, enjoying hearing her slowly build to an orgasm.
After Jess had climaxed, I moved back up her body and pushed my cock inside of her. Our mouths again met as we kissed deeply while I began to slowly stroke back and forwards. She wrapped her arms and legs around me as I continued to slowly fuck her, we were entwined together and I was enjoying this moment, hoping that Jess was enjoying it just as much.
After a few minutes we broke the kiss, we were looking into each other’s eyes as I continued to slowly fuck her. Jess raised her hand to the side of my face, rubbing it as I could see tears beginning to well up in her eyes.
I spoke softly to her.
“Am I doing that bad that you want to cry?”
Jess smiled and giggled a little.
“No, I love you so much Steve. I’m so happy right now.”
“I don’t want you happy, I want you screaming with orgasms.”
“Well, you might want to try fucking me harder then. But first, can we stay like this a bit longer?”
“Yeah, I’m enjoying this.”
Jess then pulled my head towards her to kiss me deeply again. I was enjoying making love to her, I want to do this for the rest of my life.
Thirty minutes later, and after I was able to get Jess to cum twice more during our frantic finale, we lay there catching our breath from the physical exertions, still with our arms wrapped around each other.
“I want to ask you something Jess, you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”
“I’ll answer anything you want. Fire away.”
“Well, you’re probably going to think it’s a bit strange, the questions I have.”
“Just ask already.”
“Alright, you said you loved fucking TJ, why? What was it about him that you couldn’t resist?”
“Wow, okay. That wasn’t the sort of question I was expecting to hear right now.”
“I said it was strange, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”
“Can I ask you why? Why do you want to know?”
“I guess I want to know why you found it hard to let him go. If it was just sex between you guys, it must have been pretty good sex.”
“Does that bother you if it was good sex? Wouldn’t it be better perhaps if we just don’t talk about it?”
“Maybe, but If I don’t know, I’ll probably just assume a lot of things. That he was a lot better at fucking you than me. That he has a way bigger cock than me that gave you more pleasure. That you probably came a lot more when you fucked him.”
“Okay, that was a lot. Are you sure you want the answers to those questions?”
I looked over at Jess and nodded. I guess I wanted to know why she felt too weak to stop his advances, did she enjoy sex with him way more than she did with me?
“What was the first one, was he better at fucking me than you? Well, not really, it was just different. We made love tonight and I really loved that, I never fucked him like that ever. With him it was always energetic, it was twenty minutes of hard fucking. Then he would wait ten minutes and we would go again.”
“What, so he would cum a few times when you hooked up?”
“Yeah, he used to recover pretty quick then want to fuck again. He would usually cum two or three times every time we got together.”
“Okay.”
“So, it was different from you, I wouldn’t say better. Just that it was sex, it was like a workout.”
“Alright I get that. Maybe I need to fuck you hard and fast a few times each night as well.”
“You can if you want, but I want you to fuck me like you normally do as well. I love how you fuck me, I don’t need you to pretend to be him.”
I nodded back to Jess and leaned in and gave her a kiss on her forehead.
“What was the second one? Did he have a way bigger cock than you and did it give me more pleasure? Yes, he did, and not really for the more pleasure.”
“So, you don’t like big cocks?”
“I didn’t say that, but it could be painful sometimes. Sometimes it felt great. But honestly when we were going at it, I didn’t notice it that much, no, that I didn’t focus on it is a better way of saying it. It could be hard to not notice it sometimes when it hit my cervix. That could be so painful. But it didn’t really give me any more pleasure than what your cock gives me. Honestly.”
“And did he make you cum more than I do?”
“About the same. Sometimes more, sometimes less. It kind of depends what type of mood I was in, what sort of position we tried, if he was hitting my cervix or not. I found it hard to cum after that. But basically, it was like us, sometimes I cum with you more one night than I will the next. But you do make me cum as much as he ever did. I came three times tonight, and that’s pretty normal for us.”
“So why did you find it hard to end it with him if he was really no better for you than I am?”
“I think I loved the really hard and fast fucking he always gave me. And that he could do that two or three times every time we fucked. It was so raw and aggressive. It was all about the sex, nothing emotional, and that can be its own turn on I guess.”
“So, are you going to miss him then?”
“No. As long as you give me a good hard fuck every now and then, there will be nothing to miss.”
Jess then hopped up on top of me and kissed me hard again, with her hand going down to begin stroking my cock.
“If you want to fuck me hard a second time, I’m ready when you are.” Jess said as she looked into my eyes with a smile across her face.
God I love this woman. And I’m going to marry her too.
The End.