“That’s not up to me to decide for you Claire, only you can make that decision, but I’ll tell you now that it will not be easy, you’ll have to work hard at it and get out of your comfort zone quite often. But the first obstacle that you have to overcome is you have to want to change. Do you want to change Claire?”
I thought for a couple of seconds then replied,
“Yes I do, those girls appear to be having a lot more fun than I do. And I want some of it but I don’t know how to change.”
“Well you’ve just solved the first obstacle, the next one is to force yourself into situations that are outside your comfort zone.”
“Like what, how?”
“Baby steps Claire. How about getting some new clothes, ones more like those that the girls at work wear?”
“You mean shorter skirts?”
“Well yes, and low cut blouses. I’m sure that you have a really nice pair of legs under that skirt Claire.”
“The first problem with that is that I only have small breasts. I could never display a cleavage like some of the girls.”
“Not having big breasts isn’t a problem look at Jenny Smith, she only has tiny breasts but that doesn’t stop her showing most of her sternum most days. Besides, I don’t like big breasts.”
“The other problem is that I don’t have much money, but I guess that I could shorten some of the ones that I’ve got. That’s one good thing that my mother taught me, sewing, she even let me bring her old sewing machine with me.”
“That would be a great start Claire, but maybe one new skirt or dress just to make you feel good because feeling good is half the battle. Maybe I could come with you to help you choose something.”
“You’d do that for me Ethan?”
“Of course I would, it will be an excuse to see you again, outside work that is.”
“I’d like that Ethan but you don’t need an excuse to see me outside work again Ethan, I’d like to see you again.” I was silent for a couple of seconds then I continued, “would you kiss me please Ethan?”
“That will be my pleasure Claire.”
Ethan bent over and we kissed. At first it was just on the lips, but that alone was magic for me, I’d never had a proper kiss on my lips before and these strange feelings were starting in both my nipples and my pussy.
Then I felt Ethan’s tongue trying to open mine so I relaxed and let them open. When I felt his tongue exploring my mouth I was a bit stunned. What was he doing? Does he expect me to do the same? I didn’t have a chance to decide what he wanted or expected because my tongue had a mind of its own and the two tongues explored the other.
The strange feelings got stronger.
When Ethan finally broke the kiss I just sat there not really knowing what to say or what to do. After a couple of seconds Ethan said,
“What was that like Claire?”
“I, I, I don’t know what to say, I’ve never experienced anything like that before.”
“But was it nice?”
“No, it was awesome, it stated strange feeling in my, my lady parts.”
“You mean your nipples and your pussy?”
“Yes.” I quietly replied.
“You can say those words Claire, say them again.”
“Nipples.” I replied.
“And?”
“Pussy.” I replied.
“Again Claire.”
“Nipples, pussy.”
“Again Claire.”
“Nipples, pussy.”
“Again Claire.”
“Nipples, pussy.”
“Good, well done Claire, now tell me what the feeling was in your pussy.”
“What, no, I can’t do that, it’s embarrassing.”
“Claire, what did you say you wanted to do?”
“Change. Okay, my pussy tingles and it feels wet.”
“Good, that’s two more baby step achieved, well done Claire.”
There was silence for a minute or so then I said,
“Thank you Ethan.”
“You don’t have to keep thanking me Claire.”
“But you’re helping me and I’m grateful.”
“If you’re going to be my girlfriend you don’t need to keep thanking me Claire.”
“You want me to be your girlfriend Ethan?”
“I do, but to you want me to be your boyfriend Claire?”
“I do Ethan. Will you kiss me again please?”
“You don’t have to ask me Claire.”
So I got brave and lent over and kissed Ethan on the lips again and it was just as good as the first time. Ethan put one of his hands on my knee over my dress. I tensed up for a second then relaxed and enjoyed the tongue wrestling.
When the kiss broke Ethan asked me if I’d like another drink. I asked for another cocktail and when he came back he sat closer to me and started asking me about my hobbies. I laughed and replied,
“What hobbies, I haven’t got any.”
“Okay, what nice places do you like going to Claire?”
“I have no idea, I once dreamt about going to the beach, that would be nice.”
“I will take you to a nice beach where you can run around with no clothes on.”
“Oh I couldn’t do that, not without any clothes on.”
“Baby steps Claire, baby steps.”
“I’m not sure that I could ever do that, my mother wasn’t even happy when I went to the swimming lessons when I was a kid and I had to wear a big one piece swimsuit.”
“Don’t worry about that for now Claire, all in good time.”
Just them the landlord called time so Ethan said,
“I’ll walk you home Claire.”
“That’s okay, I managed to get here on my own.”
“No Claire, I want to walk you home.”
“Oh, sorry, I didn’t realise.” I said cursing myself under my breath for not realising that he wanted to be with me for longer.
As we walked out of the door Ethan took my hand and gently squeezed it making me feel good. We walked and talked and when we got to my apartment I said,
“I live in here Ethan.”
“When can I see you again Claire?”
Not thinking what he really meant I replied.
“Tomorrow at work.”
“Outside work Claire?”
“Stupid me, I’m not used to this dating thing, anytime that you want Ethan, the only thing that I have planned in my life is going to work, my weekly trip to the supermarket and my monthly trips back home.”
“Right then, with your permission I will be here tomorrow night at 7 p.m. Wait, no, I’ll give you a lift home from work.”
“You don’t have to do that Ethan, I can get the bus as usual.”
“Claire, have you considered that maybe I want to give you a lift home.”
“Oh, right, thank you, that will be nice. I’d better go in now, I’m not usually up this late.”
“Can I have a kiss before you go in please Claire?”
“Yes please Ethan, I like it when you kiss me.”
“Or you could kiss me Claire, you can do that anytime that you want, except at work.”
I looked up to Ethan’s face thinking about how to kiss him when his mouth found mine, well I think that it was his mouth that found mine, it could have been the other way around, and we started kissing. Ethan’s arms went round me and he hugged me. In response I put my arms round him and it felt good. I didn’t realise what it was at the time but I felt something pressing on my stomach.
After a while I felt Ethan’s hands slide down to my butt. My first instinct was to reach round him and pull his hands away but I resisted and as the kiss went on and on whatever it was pressing on my stomach seemed to get harder. When the kiss finally broke I said,
“Phew, that was awesome Ethan.”
“Yes it was, but I’d better let you go in before I try to do something that you wouldn’t want me to, well not yet.”
I looked at him not knowing what he was talking about and Ethan stepped back. Ethan’s arms slid down mine and our hands joined for a second before I gave him a quick kiss then said goodnight. As I opened the building door I looked back and saw Ethan still looking at me. I waved then went in.