I was feeling down and extremely blue.
Rolf sensed when I wasn’t feeling well. He sat at my side, put an arm around me, kissed me temple and asked, “Do you want to talk about what’s troubling you?”
I sighed.
“I can’t stop asking myself why? What terrible thing could I have possibly done to deserve this karmic payback?”
“I don’t have an answer for that. You know I’m not a religious person. Bad things happen to good people, good things happen to bad people, and sometimes it’s just no one’s fault. Instead of asking yourself why, focus on what you can do to get well.”
Rolf closed his arms around me, and I buried my face in his chest.
“I am so afraid,” I whispered.
“Do you know what I see when I look at you?”
“A bald cancer patient?” I said trying to make a joke.
“No, silly girl. When I look at you, I see a brave woman fighting for her life. Someone taking control of her destiny and ready to kick cancer’s ass. You can beat this. We can beat this.”
“I feel like my world is unraveling. I don’t feel optimistic, right now, Rolf.”
“Your optimism has been beaten down. I get it. We’ll find it again. I won’t let you quit.”
I looked into his eyes, “Why?”
He rolled his eyes. “Because I love you! You have changed me in so many ways. You’re too important to me to let you quit.”
I sat up and straddled him.
“I love you, too.” The words shocked me, I hadn’t consciously decided to say them, but I know they were true the moment they fall from my lips. “I love you, too,” I said again, needing to hear the words.
A wide smile spreads across Rolf’s lips. “I love you, Rain. I love you with all my heart.”
Rolf kissed my lips gently and lovingly.
When we broke the kiss, I asked him, “What about tomorrow and the day after tomorrow?”
Rolf cupped my face in his palms and pressed his forehead against mine. The muscles in his face tensed. “I don’t know what will happen tomorrow. What I do know is that I’m happy with you today. I love you, my love.” He swallowed. “I’m even happier knowing that you love me, too.”