“That’s why you’ve been avoiding him this week, huh?” It wasn’t exactly what he had guessed, but it made sense too.
“Kind of,” she nodded. “Ugh, is it that obvious?”
“Yeah, but I think it was mutual at least.”
“I didn’t want to seem…too into this. I thought it might come off like I’m a little too interested in Logan. You know what I mean?”
“I believe you’re not, Killian. I know your heart is mine,” he said, giving her hand a little squeeze. “But I know you’re attracted to him too and it’s not going to make me jealous to hear you say that.”
“So, what would make you jealous then?” asked Killian.
“If you intentionally start spending most of your time with him and not me, I’d be jealous,” he said. “If you actually fell for him that would crush me too.”
“So, if I told you I can’t stop thinking about the way Logan made me cum with his cock buried in my ass, you wouldn’t be jealous? Hypothetically.”
“Nope,” he shook his head. “Is it true?”
“It’s crossed my mind a few times,” admitted Killian.
“That’s hot. Did you think about it while you were masturbating?” Jack already felt a stirring in his pants.
“Once. But in my fantasy, you were there watching too.”
“You’re sweet, babe,” he kissed her.
“When did you get so chill, Jack?” she mused. “I mean, I’ve seen you with girls before, and the ones that stuck around, you always treated nice. And I thought you’d be a good boyfriend. But this is different. What changed?”
“You did, Killian. Spending time with you has always made me feel good, but realizing how I felt about you, and then being with you…everything just fell into place, and I feel so much more relaxed. I never realized how wrapped up in my head I was. I’d get so tense. Realizing I love you made everything make sense.” By the time he’d finished speaking Killian looked rather emotional. He added, “I wasn’t feeling all that chill today.”
“Why’s that?”
“Thinking about you. Overthinking things.” He paused. “I want you to be happy, Kil. I set this up because I thought it would be fun and you seem super into when the three of us are together. But if it’s stressing you out or you feel guilty or your just not into it, fuck it.” He wondered if he could verbalize what he really felt in a way she’d understand. He had to try at least. “You think it’s you that’s getting the best end of this arrangement, but it all part of my selfish plan.”
“Oh?” Killian raised her brows.
“I’m going to keep you forever, Killian. Forever is a really long time. You’re such a sexual person and I think that’s so hot. I don’t want to stifle that, but I’m not willing to let you go either, and I’m not cool thinking about you with random guys. You deserve to experience another lover than just me. But you deserve the best, and I need to trust it too; this specific situation with the three of us, I’m honestly super comfortable exploring with you.”
She nodded, clearly processing what he was telling her.
“Who knows,” he said slyly, “maybe I’m just okay with it because I know any other cock you see now, you’ll compare to mine. And mine will always win.”
“You’re not wrong about that,” she smiled.
“See, told you it was all selfish,” he nudged her. “Just trying to get big dick compliments out of it.”
“It that your way of telling me I should be giving you more big dick compliments?”
He shrugged. “I wouldn’t be mad if you did.”
“I’m obsessed with it, Jack,” she said earnestly, looking up at him with her pretty, blue doll eyes. “If cock worship is what you’re into, I’d been more than happy to oblige with 100% sincerity.”
“I don’t know about into it, but I wouldn’t mind finding out, if you’re ever feeling inspired.”
“I’m inspired to lavish your cock with praise every time I get to see it or touch it.” She bit her lip, looking down.
He wasn’t sure if he’d been serious when he mentioned it or not, but the lust on Killian’s face fully convinced him that he wanted to experience it. “I think we should revisit this idea when we aren’t in public,” he said, catching her eye.
She blushed when she realized he’d seen her staring at his crotch, and said, “Agreed.”
“There’s one thing I wondered—want clarification on,” said Killian. “You want to keep my heart. You don’t want me to date Logan. That’s fine. But why do we have permission to flirt then?”
He was quiet for a long time, before saying, “I’ll try to explain it.” He didn’t know how. He’d never thought of how to articulate it before. “There are certain feelings you don’t get with me. We’ve known each other for so long. I know that this part of our relationship is a new experience, and there’s always going to be lots of amazing new things to experience together, but it doesn’t change the fact that we know each other inside out. You get the comfort of safety to explore anything you want with me. But sometimes the thrill of the unknown is fun too.” He hoped that made sense to her.
“Killie, sometimes it feels like you think I’m worried I’m not enough for you. I want you to trust that it’s not like that at all. I’m going to keep you forever, and I think that’s a pretty realistic goal. I don’t feel like this threatens our relationship. We’re inseparable. I know I can satisfy you. Just me. But I have the opportunity to give you even more; if I can give you something you’d enjoy, why would I not do it?”
“Thank you, Jack. I do trust you. I’m sorry I’ve been acting so awkward but talking today made me feel a lot better.”
“Do you want to have this arrangement or not? Honestly,” he asked, hoping she’d be open to talking about it. He was briefly amused by the role reversal. Who would have thought he’d be the one trying to get her to open up? “Neither of us will be upset or mad at you if you realized you were into the idea but found out you weren’t comfortable with it in reality.”
She bit her lip. “I’d really like to give it a try—the kinky trio arrangement. It’s a huge turn on for me. Like, really huge,” she blushed. “My sex life went from zero to a hundred so fast and it’s almost overwhelming, but in a good way. I guess it was hard for me to wrap my head around having this crazy hot fantasy in real life. The too-good-to-be-true feeling.” She took his hand in hers and wove her fingers through his. “I do believe you. I think I just needed to hear it from you. I didn’t want to make any assumptions and fuck things up with you.”
“Is there anything you want to change about the arrangement that would make you more comfortable? I’m sure Logan would be open to it. Or you and I can talk about it together. I guess we haven’t talked about it much, just the two of us.”
She shook her head, though it looked like she was pondering things. “Are you sure you’re comfortable with me seeing Logan and not telling you first?”
“I think so,” he said. “It definitely shocked me yesterday because it was the first time, but I wasn’t upset by it. Would you be more comfortable telling me first? That’s totally cool with me too. Don’t feel like you have to keep it from me. I just wanted to give you the freedom either way.”
“I think it threw me because it had never happened before too. I learned that husband comes home from work early and finds cheating wife is definitely not my kink. That’s sort of what I kept comparing it to and I didn’t like how that felt.”