This will feel better if you don’t resist. Don’t try to fight me. You won’t win. His voice is firm, commanding.
He steadies her bottom, then continues, this time inserting two fingers and gently scissoring them apart.
You’re so… innocent. Your mind is so tough and strong. But you’re innocent. He continues preparing her with his fingers. “I’m the only one who’s done these things to you. Just me… and Hux.”
Rey goes still, shocked. Her heart pounding.
You really thought I wouldn’t find out, he says, his voice cool and even. “You can’t hide anything from me.”
Kylo Ren strokes himself, oiling himself up, preparing to enter her from behind.
You’re wondering why I’m not mad? I was. That’s why I stayed away for the past few days. He rubs his hands over her bottom, watching her struggle helplessly. He runs his hand up her back, pushing her down.
And I am still mad. His voice seems to run over her skin ominously and sends chills up her spine. “And you should be afraid.”
Rey whimpers as he scratches his fingers down her back. He positions his penis at her back entrance and presses forward. Rey cries out in pain.
Shhh… Relax… Don’t fight me… He runs his hand along her sides and she shudders, sensitive. He grabs her waist and presses himself in deeper.
The unfamiliar fullness is shocking to Rey. Nothing was more humiliating than this, she thinks. He’s violated every part of her body and mind.
He presses in and pulls out, making her cry out loudly— her voice still muffled by the gag.
She feels moisture between her legs— feels her body aroused, despite her horror. As he presses into her back end, she feels a distinct lack, an unsatisfied ache
between her legs.
She endures his assault upon her— feels regret that he’s not fucking her properly. It surprises her that she misses the pleasure from every other time he took her.
The way he moved inside her now made her crave him— Such dissatisfaction! She felt the moisture from her arousal leak down her legs— desiring him— but there was no build up of pleasure this time— no orgasm. Just a WANT— a frustration— and an unfamiliar and humiliating fullness.
Why should I give you what you want when you’ve betrayed me? He pushes into her furiously, finally reaching his release. He holds her tightly as he spills his seed into her rectum.
He pulls out. He SLAPS her bottom and she jumps. Rey feels helpless and intensely FRUSTRATED. Stimulated and denied release… nothing but a dull, craving ache between her thighs.
And a violated feeling. Used. He’d pleasured himself and emptied himself inside her… and left her hanging, wanting, with a silent and intense anguish.
She hears him moving about the room. She cries and struggling in frustration.
Calm down, he says, annoyed. He walks over to her and smacks her ass. “I have a present for you.”
Rey knows this isn’t good. She stills herself, trying to calm down.
Kylo runs his hands all over her body, petting her. “It’s all over now…”
Rey’s nerves are fired up and she can’t shake the frustration she feels between her thighs.
Kylo Ren unties her wrists, releasing her. Rey falls to her hands and knees. She stays there while he removes the blindfold and unties the gag in her mouth.
Kylo picks her up in his arms, cradling her. He kisses her forehead. Carries her to the bed.
Why did you do that to me? Her voice is shaky as she cries. Tears stream down her face. Kylo wraps a blanket around her.
Are you going to obey? he asks as she stares into his deep, dark eyes.
She nods, still crying.
“Don’t ever keep secrets from me again.
Rey puts her head down, unable to look at him. Kylo Ren pets her head. I’m not your enemy anymore, Rey.”” He tilts her head up to look at him. “”You belong to me.”””
The look in Rey’s face is painful to him. So hurt. So vulnerable. Fragile. His heart goes out to her then… He doesn’t need to penetrate her mind to see how much her sense of self begins to disintegrate day by day… always reminding herself that she’s a person… that he’s the monster and what he’s doing is wrong…
He shakes his head. He’s the monster? He needs her rock-bottom, her identity broken and discarded— before he could begin turning her into a powerful force user. One that would serve him completely.
What are you, Rey?
I’m— I’m yours, she says, hoping it is the right answer. Wanting the peace they had before he found out about Hux. Deeply regretting it and wanting to please him.
Are you hungry? he asks.
She nods. Kylo moves over to the kitchen. He begins pulling out cooking devices and removing food.
He looks at Rey, huddled on the bed. He smiles and shakes his head. “You’re precious, Rey. Absolutely precious.”
Are you still mad at me? she asks meekly.
He continues cooking. Shrugs. “We’ll see. Now get dressed. We set down on Moraband in less than an hour.”
Rey takes a risk to ask a question. She fingers the collar around her neck. “I thought you were going to take this off when we landed?”
Kylo sighs and walks over to the bed and caresses her face. “Don’t make me hurt you. When we land I can’t be kind to you anymore.”
Kind? You’ve never been kind… she says in a hushed voice.
Kylo Ren’s eyes widen. “If that’s how you feel… then let that be a warning to you for what could happen when we land.”