A couple minutes later and I finished I flushed and sprayed Lysol to get rid of the stink and pulled my shorts back up
” you can come in ”
She walked in
” you OK ”
” Yeah can you help me out a little ”
She quickly walked over and grabbed a hold of the rope and helped me position myself back into the wheel chair
” thanks baby cuz ”
” I’m not baby cuz ”
I pushed myself out into the living room her close behind me, I wheeled up next to the arm chair in the living room and motioned for her to sit which she did
” your my baby cuz weather you like it or not ”
” what about Aiden or Angie ”
” yeah they’re younger than you and they’re our cousins respectively but your the special one, Chris and Connor are both in the army and in their twenty’s, but you and me well were the only ones around our age in our family so yeah perspectivly your not my baby cuz but I call you it cause its something me and you have a common ground on but if you want me to stop I will ”
” if that’s how you think of it then I’m OK with it but could you try calling me by my name I’m grown up ya know ”
” yeah Jess I understand ”
” thanks ”
She smiled at me and gave me a kiss on the cheek and unconsciously hugged me ”
” ow fucking eh ”
” I’m so sorry ” concern ran across her face
” its good ” sucking in a quick short pain filled breath
” you sure ”
” yeah… just give me a second ”
The pain slowly went back to the moderately tolerable level
” can you help me lay on the couch ”
” yeah ”
” just don’t hurt me ”
She looked at me and gave me that smile that was easily read as you are so lucky your hurt or I’d kick your ass ”
” what ” chuckling
” you know what ”
” but you know I had to ”
” yeah ”
” I love you ” I said being a kiss ass
For a second or a fraction of a second when I said I love you I saw her expression start to change but it immediately jumped back to I wish I could kick your ass
” alright how are we gonna do this ”
” um I’ll put my feet on the couch then with my arms and your help I’ll push myself onto the couch ”
With her help I got onto the couch with mild to little discomfort
” thanks baby cu I mean Jessie thanks Jessie ”
She smiled at me
” at least you tried that’s all I ask… I’m gonna go to the bathroom try not to fall off of the couch when I’m in there OK ”
” what ( I asked in mock confusion ) you guys go to the bathroom ”
” yeah what did you think we did just store it ”
” yes that’s exactly what I thought god wait till I tell the guys they’ll be thrown completely off ” with sarcasm in my voice
She gave me that look again
” just another guy ”
With that she turned and walked into the bathroom, I turned on the TV and started watching a movie on HBO I grabbed the laptop off of coffee table and powered it on and went to Facebook, it was the first time since the accident and god was my wall blown up.
I guess I should take the time out now to describe me. well I recently turned seventeen, I’m going to be a senior next year, I’m exactly six feet tall and weigh just shy of two hundred pounds. I’m an A and B student I don’t participate in extra curricular activities but I do have a decently fit body ,I’m not the cool kid but everybody knows me because I’m the class clown of sorts I know when to stop or keep going, and I’m pretty trust worthy so a lot of people confide in me and I’m generally the nice guy.
As I was scrolling through the hundreds of well wishes jess came out of the bathroom
” are you hungry ”
” now if I think about it yeah I am ”
” what do you want ”
” whatever you make ”
” eggs it is ”
” dammit ” joking around
” what ”
” its just that ”
She gave me the I’m going to actually kill you look I stopped what I was saying
” what I thought haha ”
The rest of the day went on mom came home with filled prescriptions and groceries, she had told me that she had to fly out west Monday morning and would be back that night and asked if she needed to have someone fill in for her to take care of me I looked at Jess she looked at me I said she didn’t and that Jess and I could manage and that was that all we did really was talk and watch TV, I had started to get tired and wanted to go to bed and they helped me to it then mom walked out of the room.
” where are you sleeping Jess ”
” on the couch ”
” no your not ”
” I’ll be fine ”
” trust me one night on that couch is horrible let alone a couple months I gotta king sized mattress more than enough for me and you to sleep comfortably plus if I need something in the middle of the night I got you right here to help me ” I gave her a genuine smile
” are you sure ”
” yeah ”
” OK I’ll get all my stuff ”
She brought in two suit cases and a small laptop carrying bag
” when your done can you turn the light off ”
” I’m pretty tired so give me like fifteen and I’ll be joining you in going to bed ”
” OK ”
I rolled away from her and closed my eyes and started falling asleep and about twenty minutes later she turned the light off and got in bed she whispered ” goodnight ” and kissed me on the cheek and laid down and covered up with a blanket
” I love you only if I could tell you that ”
I was too tired to comprehend what she said and fell asleep. I woke up two or three hours later in the pitch black room I could make out the outline of her lying face towards me I whispered
” you awake ”
” yeah ”
” everything OK ”
” yeah you ”
” my left side hurts ”
She turned on the bed side lamp and walked around the bed
” let me see ” still in a soft voice
I lifted my shirt her jaw dropped
” oh my god why are you out of the hospital ”
” its not as bad as it looks ”
” no its worse ”
She gently touched my side examining the foot long by foot long bruise she put a little to much pressure and a sharp pain shot through my side
” ah shit ”
” I’m sorry ”
” me too ”
” what do you want me to do ”
” Just lay here and talk with me I never get to do that with anyone ”
” OK ”
She laid down and turned the light out
” so what did ya wanna talk about ”
” life.. in general like how are things at home, how’s school, have ya met anybody ya like, what are your plans when you get back home those kinda things ”
” home is lonely and quiet mom is becoming less and less frequent to be seen, school well school is alright but im happy to say it doesn’t start for three months, any people I like there’s no guys at my school I like ( she took a pause before continuing ) but there is a guy iv known for a while he’s cute sweet and thoughtful but I don’t even think he likes me how I like him ”
The thing she mentioned earlier shot back into my head in only milliseconds my mind had asked it self so many questions.
was it me. how am I supposed to react. How do I find out if it is or isn’t. What do I do if it is. I knew I had to tread lightly I knew this was a touchy subject so I had to be sure before anything.
Then the most important questions formed in my brain do I feel the same, yeah she’s beautiful intelligent and witty, but is it right, my saying is if its love then you shouldn’t be judged on who you love its natural human instinct so to me yeah its ok, do I love her, yes more than anything just cause she cares remember this is just milliseconds in my brain