My trembling, I nearly lost my balance and my knees buckled as I came on my brother’s face, my juices mixing and disappearing with the running water into his mouth. Lifting him off the floor I switched places with him, immediately getting on my knees and putting his penis into my mouth, sucking on it as I played with his balls as well. His organ felt incredible as I sucked on it, his precum giving me a preview of the taste I loved most. His breathing telling me that he was close, he took his dick out of my mouth, so I switched to his balls, sucking on them with as much passion and drive as I had done with his cock.
Half a minute later I knew he was finishing; I took my opportunity and removed his hand and deepthroated him as far as I could. The cum hit the back of my throat, its flavor filling my tongue, I looked into his eyes with complete satisfaction letting him know exactly what he caused in me. Afterward, I cleaned him off completely with my tongue trying to keep the water from doing my part of the job.
“Jesus Christ Logan, we needed more shower sex in our lives.”
“Oh definitely,” I said finishing with his cock. “Think I still need to finish showering though, wanna help me?”
“Oh hell yes,” he said with a smile.
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“Hey, can I ask you something about your brother?” asked Jenny.
“Ok,” I said nervously.
“Is he seeing anyone right now?”
My brief second of relief was quickly overturned by my jealousy, I kept that hidden as well.
“Well, he’s interested in some girls in his class I think,” I lied.
“But not actually dating?”
“No, why?”
“It’s ok,” she laughed, “I get it, it would be weird because of us, I shouldn’t pursue it.”
I tried my best to keep cool and pretend like I didn’t care but it was clear to her I was troubled.
“Hey, I’m sorry,” she said, “I promise I won’t do anything. You know how important our friendship is to me and I don’t want to ruin anything between us, I’ll leave it alone.”
“No, it’s fine,” I told her, “Sure it’s a bit awkward but I really wouldn’t mind, it’s just that he’s struggling through school right now and he isn’t interested in dating anyone so, I don’t think he would agree to go out with anyone.”
“I thought you said he was interested in a few girls in his class?” she pointed out.
“Yeah, but he won’t pursue any of them,”
Her look of disappointment was now replaced with a look as if she was lost, be it in thought or in her state of mind. It was clear that she was going through something and needed to talk, not my strength, but I would give it a shot.
“Everything ok?”
“No,” she said now lying down on the bench we were sitting on.
“It’s Brian,” she continued, “I was just hoping that, once you shot him down, I would get the chance to be with him,”
“You mean, once I broke his heart you would swoop in and console him in his time of need, making him fall in love with you instead?”
“Basically,” she responded.
“That’s pretty shitty my dude,”
“I know,” she curled up on my lap, “I should’ve just been honest with him, but I guess he moved on faster than I expected him too,”
“Jenny, I love you but, he might not be the best person for you, he’s a great guy deep down but seeing the way he is around some girls, he might just end up hurting you in the long run,”
“I know,” she said sitting up, “but then why do I still want to be with him?”
She rested her head on my lap, now with a few tears coming out of her eyes. I caressed her face not knowing what the best response was for this and deciding that this was enough. She needed to know I was there for her, and that I always would be.
That night, I was lying down on my bed while Henry took a shower, I finished up my homework and we prepared for bed. Talking about our days I was more distracted than normal and did my best to just ignore my feelings, but I was thinking about Henry and me, I mean, actually thinking about it.
Despite my best attempts to do so, I couldn’t keep Jenny out of my mind. She and my brother together was extremely painful to imagine or maybe it was just the idea of me and Henry not being together. But deep down I also knew there were other thoughts in the back of my mind, where I had done my best to keep them and hide them for me to ignore.
Henry and I had never truly processed this whole thing, never actually put it into words, preferring instead to let it happen and flourish than ever put it into words. Did it start as simply sex? Was it always just that? We were far more intimate than most siblings or even friends with benefits, were there any other feelings involved?
I loved Henry, maybe more than I knew or wanted to say, and all I ever wanted was for him to have a happy life with people he could share his feelings with openly. But how could he do that with me? I was his sister, we could never be a couple, not really. I mean sure, it’s not like I wanted to get married in the future and have kids, and I wasn’t planning on going out on couples’ dates with my brother and married best friends.
But relationships were more than that, just the simple act of being together in public meant we had to keep something secret, we could only ever be our true selves around each other and that meant being dishonest with everyone else. A relationship, between us, would mean making each other’s life miserable. We could never have an actual life together; he could never be truly happy.
“What’s wrong?” Henry asked me.
“Nothing… I’m just… dealing with some stuff, but I’ll be ok.” I looked away wiping the tears from my eyes.
“Hey, it’s all right, you can tell me,” he said quietly, holding my hands in his.
I didn’t know what to say to him, how to express my fear, my fears for our relationship, this forbidden thing that would keep him unhappy forever.
“I just… I just need you to hold me, ok?”
I put my head on his shoulder, our arms around one another as I finally broke down and cried, hearing him talk to me and telling me everything was going to be fine. It didn’t matter if it wasn’t true, I just needed to hear him say it.
Lying down on the bed, he cuddled me, my hands on his arms, and feeling his chest on my back I continued to cry as I felt all my emotions draining away encouraging me to keep doing so until I felt better. With no more tears to give and thoughts to process, I only needed to go to sleep now. With my brother holding and comforting me, that would be an easier task.
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I took the drinks out of the fridge and passed them around, listening in to the jokes and chatter. Sitting next to Brian, I handed him his beer while he put his arms around me. Looking around I could see my brother with Jenny, her hand on his bicep and staring into his eyes with more interest than he showed in her. I hoped this would work for the both of us, even if we had to pretend for a while, eventually, it would get easier.
“Isn’t that true Logan?” asked Brian.
“I’m sorry?”
“I was telling the guys about how long it took me to finally convince you to go out with me, you’re a strong-headed girl I tell you,”