Selected for Sport Ch. 18 by SmileWhenYouMeanIt,SmileWhenYouMeanIt

Limaq. Limaq’s father was taking responsibility for her child; the responsibility of the deceased’s father falling on the grandfather. She bit a lip against the surge of misery for her friend. Was he really dead? Or was this another lie, were they just protecting her still? Protecting both her and her child. Xanir’s child. That must be it.

The post-dated annulment made sense now. Had she been the bride of the Great Tahl when Limaq had begotten a child on her, her life would be forfeit, together with the child’s and father’s. A legal fiction – more subterfuge. She hid a weary smile as she mounted the mule with a sigh of resignation.

Then she squashed her resentment. Xanir was trying to lift a siege and repulse a rebellion mixed with an invasion. She could endure her own petty difficulties to keep this child safe. Xanir’s child. Their child, entwining the two of them permanently. She still couldn’t take it in, heart lifting like the sun.

She mustn’t, she admonished herself. Better she too believe that the child was Limaq’s.

“Forward!” snapped the officer.

*

A fortnight later, Xanir stood motionless, staring out over the darkening sea from the buffs of the Southern headland of Jaifa Bay, his back to the campfires of the victorious army dotted across the coastal plain outside the walls. He ignored the ceaseless flutter and cacophony to his left, feathers wheeling and squabbling around the occupants of the twin gibbets suspended above Jaifa harbour: Faisal and Justin.

Haman stood behind his right shoulder, for once quiet, although he let out a soft sigh when Xanir turned and strode past towards where his tent was outlined by the glorious sunset, dropping the Tahl-Mat’s message into the brazier outside, watching flames lick up the parchment.

The letter had been a tortuous medley of advice, recriminations about keeping their mother in the dark over the state of both sons and empire, and veiled accusations against further plotters, but a side-swipe had contained the information every nerve had been straining for: the Kjell whore had been taken by the Limaq to pop her bastard. Alanna was out of the capital. She was still dangerously vulnerable; his messenger must have managed to reach the city first, riding hell for leather as soon as Xanir had made landfall and received the news of her pregnancy. But the crews had not been able to keep silent long, even now rumours were spreading that the Tahl had arrived with the warships, not the army. The swiftest route to the Kural Coast from Jaifa was through the capital. A simple count and the subterfuge would explode: whether the child actually was Xanir’s became immaterial: it could be.

“What will you do?” his brother asked quietly.

Xanir stared out to sea again, heart hot. Out there, he had taken the worst blow. Limaq had reached him with his warning just in time for them to scatter their warships among the Medulla islands and lay a trap for the Sianese fleet. They had won that first, key victory by such a narrow margin, mainly due to the dogged and fierce loyalty of one of his oldest friends, surprise and strategy giving them a faint hope despite the superior, unexpected numbers of enemy ships.

And then. Xanir’s eyes burned, his mind returning to that sickening moment: Limaq’s warning shout behind his shoulder just as Xanir had slipped on the blood-wet deck despatching one enemy; the sound of the cutlass whistling down as he had rolled, the sound of it cutting into flesh not his own. Even the moments to despatch the enemy had been too long, his sword-brother, his shield had already been gurgling his last when Xanir had dropped beside him, the sucking chest wound fatal. Limaq had gasped his last seconds in the Tahl’s arms, gulping, “Forgive me. I took –the Tahl-maia…”

The witch.

His bride, the bewildering wanton who was still keeping silent about his movements. Still. Despite her pregnancy. Or maybe because of her pregnancy. She probably knew more of the danger she was in than he did.

“There is a possibility it might be yours?” asked Haman.

Xanir didn’t speak; his throat too tight. Trust was thin on the ground right now. His first, furious reaction on reaching the besieged city and hearing Alanna was with child had been to secure her safety by playing the rumours, repudiating her and sending her to the Limaq, before news of a possible other father reached the palace. What Limaq himself had said — it hurt. So much. But he would still make sure she was safe. And the child.

“Xan?”

Xanir turned, and looked at his oldest ally, eyes ablaze. Haman’s gaze held his; one of the few who did when he was this angry. Xanir’s voice was hoarse: “Limaq was begging for forgiveness when he died. And you know what the Shitraz said.” He strode past his brother into his tent.

Haman dropped the hand he had lifted to his younger brother, and himself stared out over the camp-fires, biting his lip. Xanir had no hope of fathering further children. The Shitraz, the chief healer among their desert brethren, had pronounced this after healing the wound at the Tahl’s groin just before Xanir had taken the throne when he was only twenty. They had determined to keep the knowledge secret for as long as possible, to keep the empire stable and the sole heir safe.

Haman’s reason for keeping silent was selfish – he had no wish to be Tahl. No wish to be shouldered with these intolerable decisions. And his nephew was completely unsuitable; they both knew this.

He stepped into the tent doorway.

“I still cannot believe that Limaq would betray you,” he began.

He said so himself,” snarled Xanir.

There was a long, burning silence while the Tahl slopped wine into two cups. Xanir’s hand was shaking, as was his voice when he whispered, “Nor can I.” He dumped the jug back onto the table, wine slopping over the side, and pinched the bridge of his nose, turning his back on his brother. A long sigh. “Fifteen years of fruitless marriages, scholar. You tell me what to think.” He had not hurt like this in years. Limaq. Em Feliz. And her.

The silence prickled against the skin.

I think you like this one, Haman thought sombrely. She is a fitting match for you. Was.

“I prayed to Mikla for some way to keep her,” Xanir murmured, staring down into his wine. “Any way.”

Haman sucked in breath between his teeth. “Gifts from the goddess are always two-edged,” he quoted, then let out a long sigh. Again: “What will you do?”

“She was so alone,” Xanir’s voice was quiet. “I knew she was, she never said as such, but Limaq told me also. And I awoke this need in her, the craving for touch — I stoked it, built it, then left.”

Haman stared, brows knitting together. Compassion? Never had he seen Xanir like this.

Then, a third time: “What will you do”

“Will you leave me alone?” The Great Tahl slammed his cup down onto a small table and began to unstrap his weapons.

“No. Not while I am trying to fill the shoes of Em Feliz, Mikla bring peace to his soul,” retorted Haman quietly. “And we have only a very short window to decide.”

Xanir snorted and lifted a hand to squeeze the bridge of his nose, hard. Em Feliz had fallen in a sortie, impersonating Xanir, only two days before he had arrived with the fleet to lift the siege. With the fleet that would have been sunk en route had Limaq not, enduring excruciating pain, faked his own hanging then ridden hell-for-leather to warn his Tahl. Zander was further South, leading the ghelber to hold back the second wave of invaders attacking the easier coastline. And now Alanna was unsafe, although he had sent her into the desert, to the Limaq, and he was misleading his brother, his oldest ally.

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