Then I feel something new, on my lower back. There’s a warmth there as if someone poured something on me. It’s all over my lower back as well, with it being warm and thick. This makes me chuckle and even smile as I keep my head lowered. Bill came as well. He came all over my back, just like we talked about.
Staying bent over, I do let out a few tears, but these are happy tears. In a few hours I’m sure my tears will be of pain and annoyance as I have a feeling I won’t be sitting for a few days, but at the moment, I’m happy. I’m free. I feel like for the first time I can truly get to know myself and what I want.
“You ok man?” Bill asks, but he does it in a whisper by my ear. I know he does this to check on me, and also to not embarrass me in front of Gina in case something is wrong. This fills me with a great deal of love, but not from him. I feel love because I know there will be plenty of guys to help me as I explore these strange new feelings. That I’m not the first person to feel like this and others can help guide me to find what I want.
“Yeah. I think I am,” I tell him happily.