“Not so fast sis. I need my goodbye hug before you leave.”
“Oh yes, of course. How rude of me.” With that she wheeled about, put her arms around my neck and gave me a warm and anything but sisterly hug which included pressing her body fully against mine and burrowing her face into my neck. I reciprocated by pulling her close to me, wrapping my arms around her and gently rubbing the small of her back. I planted a little kiss on top of her head just for good measure.
“Mmm Greg, why did God have to make you my brother.” she said as she looked pleadingly into my eyes.
“I know, I was thinking the same thing.”
We continued to hold our embrace a lot longer than a brother and sister should. As I started rubbing the small of her back more intently she looked up at me and let out a gentle sigh and whispered. “Mmm… that feels better than I care to admit.”
I continued to rub her back while pulling her closer. By this time she couldn’t have failed to notice the growing bulge that was pushing up against her. I was fully expecting her to pull away at any moment but she let me continue as my hands moved down her back until they were completely covering and gently kneading her taut little butt.
After a few more gentle sighs she moved her head away from my neck, looked up at me and said “Oh my God what are we doing?” Her green eyes were by now burrowing into mine with a look of both longing and confusion. I’d never seen that look from her before. I lowered my head until our lips were just an inch apart. I could feel her warm breath on my skin as our lips grew closer and closer until finally they brushed each other.
“No Greg stop! We have to stop this now!” as she abruptly and frantically pulled away from me and opened her car door. Without looking up at me she hopped inside and started the engine.
“Jenny, please Jenny don’t drive off. We need to talk. I’m just as messed up as you and we need to sort this out.”
The look she gave me right then was a mixture of anger, confusion and doubt all rolled into one.
“I’ll call you.” she snapped as she put her car into gear and peeled out of the parking lot before I could say another word.
My only thought was, “my God what have I done.”
CHAPTER FOUR
I sat glumly in my apartment the rest of the day and into the evening. I kept looking at the phone but it never rang. I tried to watch some TV but couldn’t concentrate. I put on my running clothes thinking a fast 3 miler might help. Just as quickly as I’d put them on I took them off and headed sullenly back to the couch. No doubt about it, I was an emotional wreck. My appetite was completely ruined too. And even when my favorite baseball team came on for their game of the week, I just sat there without paying the slightest attention. I replayed the events of the last day over and over in my head as I struggled with emotions that were new and frightening to me. Was Jenny having emotions like these too? As hard as I tried I couldn’t make sense of things. On the one hand I was getting very unhealthy feelings toward my own flesh and blood and on the other I didn’t feel as guilty as I knew I should about the lines we’d crossed. Lines that could easily and permanently destroy our life-long close relationship. But no matter what, I knew I’d have to keep my urges under control lest I completely destroy this beautiful brother and sister relationship we had. Or maybe I already had? Through it all I kept seeing the lost and confused look on her face and the doubt in her eyes before she drove away. I wondered what she was thinking right about now?
Had I completely lost my mind?
All through the next week I waited for the call that never came. My mind was haunted by visions of Jenny and what I’d put her through. At work, that week where I always talked and joked with my co workers I became withdrawn and morose. My foreman approached me as I was staring off into space and asked if something was wrong.
The next week was no different, It had now been almost two weeks since I’d heard from my darling sister and I was miserable. If she didn’t call me soon I feared our relationship was destroyed for good.
Finally after nearly three full weeks the phone rang late on a lonely Friday night. At first I was scared to answer for fear of what she might have to say. I could immediately tell from the tone of her voice that the events of earlier were weighing heavily on her mind as well.
“Hi Greg. We need to talk.” Jenny said tersely.
“Yes, we do. I know how you must feel and trust me, I’ve been dealing with a flood of emotions ever since you drove away.”
There was no mistaking the anguish in her voice when she responded “Damn it Greg! What are we going to do? I’m so damned confused. I’m not sure where we go from here but it can’t go on like this. I don’t want to ruin this beautiful thing we have.”
“Everybody makes mistakes Jenny and we made a really big one. We’ll just have to put this behind us and move on. But at the same time we’ll need to set some ground rules. “No hugs, no kisses and no touchy feely under any circumstances. If we can live with those rules I think we can put our relationship back on track.”
She sounded doubtful when replying, “I hope you’re right. We’ve always been so very loving and caring with each other. We can’t ruin it now. But maybe, just to be on the safe side, we shouldn’t see each other again until we’ve had a chance to think things over a bit more and keep our distance for a while.”
“Yes, we could do that,” I replied. “But I’m not one for running away from problems and I don’t think you are either. I think we need to face this crisis head on and do it now.”
After a long pause Jenny responded. “I’m not so sure that’s a good idea, but I’ve always trusted your judgement and I’m going to trust it now.”
“Thank you. Now about future plans I really do want to see you again and soon. How be we do something where we can be together without being too close?”
“What do you mean?”
“Let’s go bowling. We’ll meet there tomorrow night if you don’t have any other plans. We’ll bowl a few frames, grab a burger, then go our own way. It will be a good litmus test of our resolve.”
I could almost hear the wheels of her mind turning. “Okay let’s do it. But Greg, if we mess up this time I hope you realize we’ll have possibly screwed things up for good.”
“Yes, I realize that. But that will also be a good incentive for us to properly behave ourselves.”
“Thanks bro. You always have a way of putting my mind at ease.”
“Likewise sis. I’ll call you in the morning and we can chat a bit if you like.”
“Sounds good. I’m so glad we had this talk. Good night Greg.”
“Good night Jenny. I love you.”
“I love you too. G’night.
Even though I’d reassured her I still wasn’t so sure about myself. As hard as I tried I couldn’t fall asleep that night. Visions of Jenny’s beautiful little ass dressed in those tight black pants or visions of those firm, small upturned tits poking out against the fabric of her sweater kept haunting my mind. I also heard over and over again those mournful sobs as she struggled with her emotions. If anything, our phone call had messed my mind up more than it already was. But I knew for the sake of both of us I had to be strong.