“And you’re all I want!” Edward snapped. Although his wife’s words were like a dagger to his heart, Edward knew he needed to do something, say something, to assure his wife that this entire holiday was not an elaborate ruse to push for a hall pass or an excuse to have sex with another woman.
“Honey, seeing you so comfortable walking around nude, in front of so many people, well…you know that is such a huge turn on for me!” he told her sincerely. “I thought you were enjoying it as well. Am I wrong?”
Susan looked away. Edward could see her biting her lip, deep in thought.
“And look at you! You look so damn sexy right now!” Edward beamed. “You are lying naked poolside, in public view of anyone! Your confidence to do this is so damn sexy, and it is so arousing for me!”
She looked up. Everyone on the balconies was looking her way. Her husband was right to a certain extent. She was naked and clearly on display. But being naked in front of others was not what was making her uncomfortable.
“Well…I am okay with this,” motioning to her surroundings, her eyes less teary now. “I am okay with others seeing me naked. I am even okay with flashing a little. But…well it’s what you told me before we came here. You told me you hoped I would be more ‘open’ to another man’s advances. You essentially gave me the ‘green light’ to fuck someone else. And I will not go there.”
While she talked about fidelity, her moral compass was spinning in circles, out of control. The reality was, the sexual nature of this place was opening doors to a new reality. Her arousal had been building all day. After what she witnessed on the beach and in the dunes, she was considering things she thought she could never consider. Could she actually put aside her marriage vows for a brief period of sexual permissiveness? The mere thought sent her heart racing again, and she was simply afraid to explore her feelings further. Truth was, she had trouble admitting there was a dark part of her that would not be opposed to such a thing.
“Well, you know I love to show you off. I would die a happy man just watching you walk around nude, and tease, flash and flirt a little! I don’t believe there is anything abnormal about a man being so profoundly turned on by seeing his wife as a really hot and desirable woman!”
Susan smiled feeling more at ease from Edward’s words of encouragement.
“So let me ask you this,” Edward continued. “When you were teasing that man on the beach, and you saw him focused on you, didn’t you think it was kind of exciting?”
“Well…yes, but I did feel somewhat conflicted. I’m not sure if I’d want to continue down that road. I mean, what if it escalates? What’s to stop a man from thinking he could go all the way?”
“Remember, you are in control. You can stop at anytime. No means no!” Edward paused, knowing anything further would have to happen naturally, especially for a naturally shy woman like his wife. “You know I would never want to push you into anything that makes you uncomfortable. Don’t forget that. But you have to admit, it is empowering, isn’t it? I mean, being that close to someone and having total control over what he sees and doesn’t see? And wasn’t it validating when you saw you gave him an erection?”
Susan blushed and looked down, trying to hide her sordid thoughts.
Edward pressed on, gently reminding his wife that extra ‘spice’ was having a positive effect on him. “I really like what it is doing it to us, to me! You are getting this old man so horny…I would love to do you here, right now with everyone watching!”
Actually, it wasn’t only Edward who was getting worked up. She couldn’t admit it, but men paying attention to her did make her feel rejuvenated and invigorated. It boosted her ego, gave her more confidence, and proved a welcome change from her normal, boring, day-to-day life.
Susan was relieved her husband was not going to force her to do something uncomfortable. And, the reality was, he never, ever did. But in this place, after some of the things they had witnessed, she needed that reinforcement. It felt good to know they were on the same page. She was glad they cleared the air and she now felt far more at ease. And she felt reassured to put her panicked overreaction far in her rear-view mirror.
“Let’s just have fun with the rest of our time here,” Edward suggested as he poured more wine refilling both their glasses.
Seeing his wife finally smile, Edward felt relieved to see her less upset. He leaned in and kissed his wife softly, but deeply – a good, long, soul-warming kiss that told her how much he loved, valued and desired her. He was reassured to feel his wife respond, opening her mouth to accept his kiss.
He looked up. The people on the balconies were still there, looking down on them from above. He looked over at his wife. With the late afternoon sun casting a beautiful golden glow on her nude body, his wife looked so damned beautiful. And he could not be more proud to be lying next to her.
“Let me reassure you, I will not push you to do anything. But I really would love seeing you act naughty tonight,” Edward explained, “Just try it. Nobody knows you here and if you have reservations about anything, or it makes you uncomfortable, I respect that. You will always be in control over what anyone sees, and you will always be in control over how provocative you wish to be.”