A Vision of Love by OlympusMons90,OlympusMons90

“Fuck Bill, I didn’t know it was that bad. I just thought you were chasing a bit of tail on the side. Not that it’s the only tail you’re getting. What about Brittany, three years is a long time to not have any sex.”

“I’m pretty sure she’s been getting her fix too. I’ve seen her out with two different guys so far.”

“What? So, you’re both having affairs? Have you talked to each other about all of this?”

“Nope. What am I going to say, ‘hey honey I’ve been fucking a few different women because you won’t put out for me, how about you? I know you must be fucking a few guys as well?’ Nah, I’d rather not know.”

“Do you think she’s seeing anyone at the moment?”

“Yeah, she went out for drinks with a guy on Wednesday afternoon, she didn’t get home until midnight. I don’t think they were just drinking and dancing.”

“You said you haven’t spoken to her about it, so how do you know about her date?”

“I stopped in for a beer to speak with Gary Johnson about the upcoming job, while I was waiting for him, I saw Brittany head into the bar across the road with a guy, they were arm in arm with each other. They didn’t look like just friends, more like fuck buddies.”

“How do you know he’s just a fuck buddy? What if she wants to be in a relationship with the guy?”

“She hasn’t so far.”

“Maybe she hasn’t met the right guy yet is all. Do you realize how fucked you are if she does?”

“Why, because she might ask for a divorce? She knows how much I love my kids, I don’t think she’d do that.”

“How do you know? You haven’t spoken to her about it. Look, if by chance she’s out looking for husband number two, have you thought about the flow on affects from that? She’d get to stay in your house with him, with your kids, with your child support, with half of your share of our business. You’d have to get another place to live while watching her new man walk straight into your home. Seriously, you haven’t thought about that?”

“I have, I don’t think she’d do that to me.”

“So, you’re placing everything in her hands then? She gets to decide your fate while you watch her going out looking for your replacement?”

“I think she’s doing the same as me, she’s just finding a bit of comfort, nothing more.”

“You hope that’s the case.”

“What else am I supposed to do Kevin? If I found someone else I want to be with, it’s the same scenario as well. She still gets the house, the kids, half of my share of the business, and my child support. No matter what I do, she gets to decide my fate, not me.”

“You could talk to her, find out where her head is at with all of this.”

“I’m worried I’ll just force the issue if she’s looking to be with someone else. That if it’s out in the open, she might do it a lot quicker.”

“Is all of this worth it? If you get divorced, you can still see your kids sometimes. I know it’ll set you back a fortune, but at least you can be with someone yourself, maybe get a little bit of happiness back.”

“I don’t want to be a part-time dad, watching some other guy raise my kids in the house I built. Besides, I’m still hopeful we can save our marriage, somehow.”

“So, you still love her then?”

“Yeah, I do.”

“Fuck Bill, it’s not a good place to be in for you, I don’t know what else to say.”

“I’m not sure there is anything more to say. I’m just hoping for the best at this point.”

We finished our beer then headed inside. Later that afternoon when we got home, Brittany came into the lounge room to speak with me.

“Hey Billy, I’m thinking of meeting up with a friend to go watch a movie. Do you mind looking after the kids tonight, I won’t be home too late, I promise?”

“What, like last Wednesday?”

“Yeah, we got carried away that night. I’ll be home around ten I swear.”

“Sure.” I responded while trying to hide my displeasure.

“Thanks, Billy. I appreciate it.” As Brittany made her way upstairs to get ready.

For the next three hours I sat in the lounge room with a scotch, thinking about what Kevin had said to me earlier. What if she is looking for guy to be in a relationship with? I never thought I’d be happier to think that my wife was just fucking some other guy for the enjoyment, rather than for her to have feelings for him. How did I get to this place?

On Sunday we went to a park nearby for a picnic lunch with the kids. While they played on the swings, I sat with Brittany, watching her as she looked over at our children. She was still so beautiful to me, I always found everything about her to be attractive. From the way she smiled and laughed, to the way she danced, to the way her large breasts jiggle when she walks. Yeah, I wish that we were in love with each other still, that she really was still mine.

“Tommy, be careful. Hold on to the swing properly.” Brittany spoke out loudly to our son.

“He’s going to be a handful as he gets older. I can tell by the way he takes risks with a smile on his face.”

“Yeah, he’s a bit too much like you Billy.”

“I don’t know, I think his mom likes to take risks too.”

“Who me?” As Brittany turned to face me with that wonderful smile of hers.

I smiled back at her, as I heard a small scream from the swings, to see Tommy half hanging off, about to fall. I quickly ran over and grabbed him, setting him upright back in the small swing.

“You have to listen to your mom, okay? When she tells you to hold onto the swing properly, you need to do it, alright?”

Thomas nodded back at me before continuing on like nothing had happened. I went back over and sat down with Brittany.

“You’re such a good dad to them, you know that.”

“We’re both doing the best we can. I just hope to watch them grow up to be good people too.”

“Same. I can’t believe Brianna will start school in a few weeks, and Tommy will be in Pre-K in a years’ time. They’re growing up so quick.”

“And we’re getting old way to quick, I’m thirty already. You might need to trade me in on a newer model soon.”

“No, I’m happy with my current model.”

“But you’ve been test driving the newer models every now and then though, right?”

“Sure, that doesn’t mean I’ll trade mine in though.”

I nodded at Brittany, this was as good as a confirmation as I wanted to the fact that she wasn’t looking to replace me.

“Besides, I know you’ve been test driving a few yourself Billy. Any of them catch your fancy?”

“No, they don’t compare with my current one. I just wish I got to drive it again, it’s been in the shop for a while now.”

“Maybe one day it might be ready for you to drive again. Not yet though, it’s still needing some work done.”

I nodded back, our thinly veiled metaphors were as close as we’ve been to discussing our current predicament. It’s good to have an understanding with her now at least.

“You’re not upset Billy?”

“I try not to be. How about you?”

“Sometimes, but it passes.”

I called the kids over so they could eat their lunch, it was a good day being with my family, out having fun together. Thankfully, days like today were still common for us, and I wanted to keep it that way.

Later that night I again found myself sitting in the lounge room drinking a scotch, contemplating my relationship with my wife. Brittany had already gone to her room to sleep, leaving me alone to slowly nurse my drink.

Leave a Comment